Love Rhythm...
That place you get to and
mutter “I’ve heard it all before”
with a deep knowing look on your face. A look some would translate as wisdom,
others pain and some arrogance. But you’re past caring.
All sorts of love proposals,
all sorts of carefully composed words, and sophisticated sentences that aim to
sound convincing. Portraying a goody bag of emotions, so deep, so real, so false, so obviously
deceitful, so aggressive… so blunt.
And so you hear them so much
that the words, whenever they are directed at you blur into a pile of
nothingness… you’re no longer moved, you can’t wait for the theatrics of
professing to end, so you can finish up painting your nails or staring into
space and wondering what it’s like to pull out the hair sticking out the nose
of the person sitting across from you, because sentences like “ so tell me about you” makes you want
to haul your phone across the room, if only it’ll keep the voice away, but you
don’t, because it’s your phone, bought with your money, and suffering the
unwanted advances wouldn’t pay for a new phone... well that’s unless you let
those who try to buy your emotions do just that, only to reveal to them that
the deal didn’t go through, as you let them down via the expensive phone they
bought for you. Life isn’t fair is it?
You’re desperate to feel a
stirring deep in your heart; you’re desperate for that string within to
recognize a cord played in yet another voice, yet another mail or instant
message with carefully thought out words… but nothing, the proverbial butterfly
eludes your stomach.
And so the nice, fine, wealthy,
enlightened, funny and almost born
again one goes in the pile of blurring nothingness.
Till that one person comes
along, with not a word of poetry, with not a silhouette of your dreams and
fairytale imagination, with no enchanted love talk, bearing no gifts to hand
over in exchange for your love.
With no desperate attempt to
paint your heart with meaningless words, with no play act…
With no trying…
All he does is be your friend,
your best friend.
And in that rhythmic walk in
friendship, where pretense is thrown under the bus, where you‘re dared to be
yourself, where beauty isn’t blinding and making common sense redundant, you
find yourself stumbling and eventually falling and opening a window for the love
bug that’s been impatiently waiting on the ground to bite you, and the sting
awakens your flat lined heart.
Your heart responds to the
cord that plays a song you desperately want to dance to, even when you’re
clueless as to how to move to the beat.
But you move all the same,
because the sound is so good, you can’t afford not to move to the rhythm, not
moving will drown you in that place of blurry oblivion… You move to the sound
so good, even if you have no idea how, because it speaks of all things beautiful,
a beauty that is beyond your face or his heart, one where you skip all the
theatrics of declaring love, where you skip all the skipping around and going
through the ritual of being coy and hiding feelings and not saying what you
mean and playing games with emotions….
Then you do a tiptoe dance around this
new beat, hoping the heels of your dancing shoes doesn't rip a hole in it, hoping it never stops playing, hoping you’re never numb again, and
back to the place where every word of wooing is drained into a hole of
blurry oblivion.
.... I think someone's in loveee :-) xx
ReplyDeleteI said it oooooooooooh...... The signs and symptoms where everywia!. Reduced phone calls, blog posts fewer and further in between, etc
ReplyDeleteNa only that butterfly bite fit give you inspiration for this kain swooning post!
Now intensifying prayers so that we shall wear that asoebi soon in Jesus' name!
Joy see what you've caused I'm almost sounding like a babe...But seriously I pray this is the ONE that lasts a lifetime. No pressures ma, but indeed God is good and faithful and may He guide you accordingly.
You deserve the best and the very best!
Bless!
You know who!
Lol...love both comments .
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