I’ve received gifts this year that have been unbelievable and amazing from an uncle of mine. God used him to make part of my year great. I was excitedly expecting the traditional Christmas package from him. Every year, I get a nice package, and this year, I planned a lot of things around this package. Well Christmas has come and gone and that special Christmas package still hasn’t arrived. I was high on being pissed. I wasn’t happy, I was sulking… I complained and I murmured, even though I joked about this unusual amnesia. Then I picked up my phone and came upon pictures of me smiling and having a good time at different times this year and it hit me, if he doesn’t do anything else for me, he’s done enough. Without me asking, he’s added to the beauty of my year by letting God use him to meet my wants.
Lack of gratitude and probably greed blinds us from seeing the good we’ve been laden with. We have a person doing good to us 364 days in a year, and the one day he takes a day off, we judge and condemn and throw all the other days out with the trash. I quickly repented of my rants, as much as I still feel a package would have done me real good, I’m no longer passively mad at him for that. I’m thankful. God forbid that he realizes how hurt I was for this one omission… what would he think of me?
It’s the last day of the year… my last post was about being thankful, and I want to end the year with another post on gratitude... Look back and see the goodness of God in your life. You may not have gotten that special request, but can you honestly turn back and smile at some events? Its all His grace and His goodness, be thankful to Him, don’t throw all He’s done out just because he hasn’t come through on one of your request…
Remember this song...
“Count your blessings name them one by one, count your blessings see what God has done… count your blessings, name them one by one, and it will surprise you what the Lord has done.”
I am grateful, and I repent of every ingratitude, I repent of every grumbling and murmuring and doubt…. I trust God and I believe in His goodness. As bad as it may seem, people have looked at me and envied me this year… that’s enough reason to be thankful. I mean all the good and bad has merged into a big beautiful picture, the bad and the moments of despair has been covered up and I have been envied, people have wished to be me… even as I struggled through some challenges. The fact that no one can perceive my challenges is a blessing on it’s own. The fact that I look like I have not a problem in the world is grace! The joy of the Lord has indeed strengthened me this year. How awesome is that. I end this year with a big thankful bang. God is awesome.
Thank you for being a part of my 2013. For every time you’ve clicked on Eldorado, you’ve encouraged me to keep doing this, you’ve made me see it’s all worth it. Brace yourself for greater things in the coming year… See you in 2014!!!