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"I write for the unlearned about things in which I am unlearned myself." - CS Lewis, Reflections on the Psalms

Sunday, September 27, 2015


My mum called and I wasn’t sounding myself while we spoke, thus I had to admit to her I wasn’t feeling well. I had been having difficult nights for some days. The worse of it had passed, and I was doing fine, just dealing with the residue of the symptoms when mum found out. I didn’t let her know when there was danger and I needed a hospital because I hate the overreaction from her, especially as it tends to triple when she’s not around you to know how you’re doing for herself. She got to know when I felt much better, but she still panicked. Mum kept calling to check on me and find out how I was feeling. She told my aunt, who joined in the nagging calls, and insisting I stay home to rest. I laughed to myself as much as I was getting a little put off by their worry. My mind was like, “dudes… I’m not ill. When I could have dropped you had no idea I was ill and when I’m feeling strong you’re worrying your pants off.”

Most times we go through really bad situations and God doesn’t reveal these things to us when we’re in the deep end until He brings us out of the emergency room, and then we panic at the little we see, clueless that it’s just a residue of something worse. (Well, that’s what I think and I’m sticking with it) I’m sure He just shakes His head at us in amazement, like chill child, If only you knew what I just delivered you from, you wouldn’t be loosing your pants over this little symptoms that you see.
Thank God for battles unseen He’s brought us out of.

I’ve come to realize that if God lets me see it, its because the worse is over. Like I only gave away that I wasn’t feeling too strong to my mum because the worse was over. The troubles that appear are just shadows of the real battle God already won. What can shadows do? Nothing… they only seem to have power when we allow fear drape over us as we run in circles round the harmless shadows.
The psalmist says “ yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” Psalms 23:4
He walks through the valley of the shadow of death, not the valley of death… so even here, he tells us that all the valley holds is just shadows and not death itself, thus we don’t need to fear in the midst of the problems, for God is with us, and He’s dealt with the worse of it already.

What are you going through right now? As bad as it looks, remember, shadows, don’t let fear get you to the place of depression. Even it’s all up in your face, remember, God’s dealt with the worse already, and this is just the residue symptoms of something worse, and it’s going to be alright.

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

The Mirror, The Look and The Heart!

I was thinking about an attitude I had towards a certain girl. You see, I was justified to feel that way about her, because literally every mutual acquaintance had the same thing to say about her, so it wasn’t a hating. I started reviewing myself when I realized we were always talking about her, we didn’t see it as gossip per se, we just constantly reviewed her shenanigans after different run-ins with her. After one of those talks, I got upset with myself and reviewed my mind; I told myself it had to stop, so what if she’s that way? So what if everybody has an issue with the way she is? So what? Why was I being consumed with her? I could disagree with all she stands for, but I really don’t need to talk about her as much as I do or at all. I made up my mind to stop after examining my mind in the mirror of my faith.

A few days later I was in church and this statement hit me from the pastors sermon “We give more attention to how we look than how we think”

I love mirrors. I don’t pass a chance to give myself a stare, because I love myself. Not in the Johnny Bravo kind of way. Now I don’t think it’s a bad thing or a vain thing, I’d rather this self-love than have zero confidence that keeps me away from mirrors. Even on days I know I look good, I still double check when I see my reflection on a car or a window, my friends sunglasses or anywhere that can give a reflection, as long as I don’t look obvious doing it. I don’t come out looking super model glam after all my time in front of the mirror, but I impress me most times, I’ve got a couple of mirror selfies to show for it. 
Bathroom mirrors are just perfect for mirror selfies!
Wouldn’t it be way cooler if only we would look at our minds with the mirror of the word as often as we check ourselves out in the mirror? We'd have transformed minds more beautiful than our well made up faces! I’m not pointing fingers; I’m a culprit when it comes to not consistently studying my bible. I see people who at every break bring out a bible to study, you know, just like I look in a mirror at any chance I get, and I’m thinking … you’re so cool bro!
The day I stopped to review my attitude to this lady was one of the days I looked at my mind in a mirror. As a face is reflected in water, so the heart reflects the real person. Porverbs 27:19(NLT)
Are our hearts as beautiful as our faces? Because with all the beauty in the world, enough to qualify you for the number 1-100 spot on some most beautiful list, you’re only as beautiful as your heart is.

You see, I don’t keep staring in the mirror because I’ve forgotten what I look like. I keep staring because I want to see more, to reassure myself sometimes that I really do look good and my outfit is ‘on point’, nothing sticking out, no VPL, no rips, stains or peeping toms. I want to adjust my makeup or give my confidence a boost by smiling at myself. That's why I don't just look once a day and move on with life. All the same reasons why we should keep reading the word, looking into the mirror of the heart even when/if we've read it before… to adjust, to reassure, to boost our confidence/faith, to stand tall knowing who we are in Christ and what we look like and to seek for change and adjustment where we see a crooked crown.

And all of us, as with unveiled face, [because we] continued to behold [in the Word of God] as in a mirror the glory of the Lord, are constantly being transfigured into His very own image in ever increasing splendor and from one degree of glory to another; [for this comes] from the Lord [Who is] the Spirit. 2 Corinthians 3:18(AMP)

The more we glance in the mirror of the scripture, the more our minds are being renewed and we begin to be transformed in our attitude, displaying God’s glory in the way we live. Glancing in the physical mirror is a daily necessity for me, even when I’m running late, no matter how flitting It is…  Lets make glancing into the mirror of the word just as important as the floor-length mirror we’re so in love with, even when we feel like there’s no time, lets make enough time to glance into the mirror of life. It's time to give more attention to how you think than how you look. Your thinking is shaped my what mirror you use to reflection on your mind...

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