who am i?

"I write for the unlearned about things in which I am unlearned myself." - CS Lewis, Reflections on the Psalms

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

His Over Mine...


Many plans are in a man's mind, but it is the Lord's purpose for him that will stand. Proverbs 19:21(Amp)

I had plans for this year. Well, when you look at them, they weren’t really plans, probably just vague wishful thinking… but they had sense and reason to them, they were all for a greater purpose. But thank God God’s purpose prevailed over my wishes.

The painful losses I later discovered were gains in disguise… its heart wrecking to think you’ve lost something valuable, but the joy of realizing that it really wasn’t a loss after all... It was such a gain. When you look beyond your emotions in most situations, you’re able to take the moment like a good sport because you know the pinch is worth the pain of now, than the torture of a deep gashing wound in future.
There were pains that brought tears… but ah, what a beauty it was to discover that the ugly of the tears served as the moisture needed for purpose to expand and grow. I asked for growth and it rained… Can I complain about that? The rain that got me soaking wet and messed up my hair and make up, was nourishment to the seeds I planted and look how the tree has grown… I can’t wait for the fruits to ripen and begin to drop.

Some dreams were crushed, but even as I tried to figure it out, I realized that they were only crushed to be reshaped into bigger realities.
I’ve had trust broken enough to make me take a stand against trusting anyone… but then in the betrayals, I’ve learned to love and to trust again in the face of the obvious scorn, because love is all that matters. We don’t give so much power to past betrayals by letting them dictate what our attitudes to others should be like, devoid of openness and love. Love is my anchor, my essence, I breathe and live and survive and joy in love. God loves me, and that clouds my judgment for good, to look at (some of) those who’ve hurt me with eyes of love to a point of foolishness… I admit not everyone has come into my circle of positive vibes, but I’m good to go on this love journey.

I have stretched…  like Isaiah 54 says; I have enlarged the place of my tent, and let the curtains of my inhabitations stretch out, spared not and lengthened my cords and strengthened my stakes. My stretch has taken me farther in faith, in hope, in understanding and in grace.  Oh, it hurts to stretch, to go beyond capacity, but same Isaiah 54 says Fear not, for you shall not be ashamed; neither be confounded and depressed, for you shall not be put to shame. I love the feeling that comes after the discomfort. It’s a good one, especially with knowing that a stretched out heart can’t go back to its previous state, it’s filled with capacity and only gets better.  I have not been put to shame; I have not been disappointed in daring to step out. God has met me every step of the way. Miracle worker He is.

This year I have grown in my understanding, and what this understanding has taught me is that the more you eat, the hungrier you become… the more of God I’ve come to know, the more of Him I want to know.
I’m thankful for His grace and His love.
God has been faithful and I’m not complaining. His plans over mine any day, any year.
We humans keep brainstorming options and plans,

but God’s purpose prevails.

Proverbs 19:21(msg)

2015 has been real… excited for 2016!

Tuesday, December 29, 2015

Fire On The Mountain...

So what if you’re in a fire right now? A fire that has been heated seven times hotter than what others seem to be going through. Like the three Hebrew boys…

“Nebuchadnezzar, his face purple with anger, cut off Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego. He ordered the furnace fired up seven times hotter than usual. He ordered some strong men from the army to tie them up, hands and feet, and throw them into the roaring furnace. Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, bound hand and foot, fully dressed from head to toe, were pitched into the roaring fire. Because the king was in such a hurry and the furnace was so hot, flames from the furnace killed the men who carried Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego to it, while the fire raged around Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego.
Suddenly King Nebuchadnezzar jumped up in alarm and said, “Didn’t we throw three men, bound hand and foot, into the fire?”
“That’s right, O king,” they said.
“But look!” he said. “I see four men, walking around freely in the fire, completely unharmed! And the fourth man looks like a son of the gods!”
Nebuchadnezzar went to the door of the roaring furnace and called in, “Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego, servants of the High God, come out here!”
Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego walked out of the fire.
All the important people, the government leaders and king’s counselors, gathered around to examine them and discovered that the fire hadn’t so much as touched the three men—not a hair singed, not a scorch mark on their clothes, not even the smell of fire on them!” Daniel 3:19-27

Maybe this year has felt like you’ve been bond and thrown into a roaring furnace from January to December. But look, it’s the end of the year and you’re standing in victory right in the midst of it. You’re praising God right in the midst of the fire. The only thing that burned off the three Hebrew boys was the shackle. They only things the fire has been able to burn off you are every bondage and shackles.
It’s burned off self. It’s burned off the weight and the flaws, but it hasn’t touched you.
Rest in the midst of the heat. There’s a fourth man in the fire with you, the world and those who’ve wished you evil can testify to that.
Keep praising, that’s your rest, your praise and your trust.
Those outside see the hand of God upon you. And you’re coming out with not a smell of smoke, not looking like what you’ve been through… but better, because self has died, character has formed in the midst of the trial. It’s only Jesus.

Then the king promoted Shadrach, Meshach, and Abednego to even higher positions in the province of Babylon. Daniel 3:30
Be expectant for the new. What was meant to kill you, to burn your will, to melt your faith, raze your trust and consume you has only brought promotion your way. Be expectant for promotions to come, for higher, for better. Don’t let what you’ve been through this year lower your expectations or determine your joy. Shedrach, Meshach and Abednego came out of the fire that was meant to destroy them and got promotions. The plot to destroy them made a way for their promotion.
God’s got you, and that’s why He’s promised that When you pass through the waters, I will be with you, and through the rivers, they will not overwhelm you. When you walk through the fire, you will not be burned or scorched, nor will the flame kindle upon you. Isaiah 43:2

Friday, December 25, 2015

Merry Christmas...

The Word became flesh and blood,
and moved into the neighborhood.
We saw the glory with our own eyes,
the one-of-a-kind glory,
like Father, like Son,
Generous inside and out,
true from start to finish. John 1:14(MSG)

The joy of Christmas, celebrating the birth of our King, the word that became flesh and dwelt amongst us. How precious it is that God moved into the neighborhood… and how glorious that He went a step further, He moved into our hearts and dwells within us. The God of the universe, living within me! Christmas reminds us that He moved into the neighborhood, it’s a season to remember and be thankful that God is always with us, around, above and within us.

Merry Christmas! Now and always, may you continuously see His glory with your own eyes and may His beauty outshine the ugliness the world forms against you. I truly do love you all.

Thursday, December 17, 2015


My mum's friend has been born again since I was little; she dropped the make up, dropped the jewelry, covered up her hair and as much as she is well to do, she lives the heaven bound life in a hell on earth mentality….

We had tons of visitors come over to visit mum after we returned home from her treatment in the UK after been away for months. (Read here) Everyone who came expressed delightful shock at how well she looked, no one could reconcile the robust looking, freshly baked dough look of mum with the one who was really ill and at deaths gate. Most left our home after shedding tears of joy and thanksgiving, because the testimony of God’s goodness and how He came through for her was just so beautiful.

So, one evening, this 'real' born again friend of mum came from out of town to visit, and she had a late lunch at ours. Later that night, after she left, my mum angrily narrated what happened. This friend of hers after hearing mum’s testimony told my mum that God made her ill because He wanted to punish her. * pause * I gasped in shock, seriously?. She then asked mother dearest to clasp her hands together in a certain way and start asking God to forgive her, but before the prayers could start, mother needed to go and clean off her nail polish… (My mum has beautifully shaped nails and they were well painted glossy red)… and she also asked her to take off all her jewelry before the prayer for forgiveness starts. I’m not sure if she was asked to take off her beautiful hair extension as well or get a scarf.

Mum said she was livid, but calmly told her friend she wasn’t doing any of those. She said her God looks at the heart not the outer person. I’m not sure if the prayer was still said.

I was sad when mum told me what happened. I told mum her friend wants her to look as miserable as she does. A plain, solemn look doesn’t translate to salvation. I’m so sad about this sort of bondage people live in, all in the name of religion. God is a loving God, why would you tell a person she was sick because God wanted to punish her? Then why would He heal her in tangible creative ways? Why would He bother with making her whole, stunning even her doctors? Why not make her well half way, and then send thunder to warn her to remove her jewelry lest she dies? Or probably tell her she needs to promise to stop wearing makeup and jewelry before He heals her, because she needs to be taught a lesson?
Why would God want a woman He’s created so beautiful to live beneath the fullness of her beauty especially at her age? Why do we preach religion and leave love out of it? Why do we kill people’s spirits all in the name of religion? Why do we paint out our loving Father as a horrible monster? A God roaming the earth, looking to punish people and bless the select few who take off their jewelry?

Unfortunately, loads of people are in this bondage, where salvation is a bunch of laws, dos and don't… We’ve been so blinded to the truth that grace came to abolish the law, and its not all about a bunch of religious rules and keeping up appearances, its about the heart and the personal relationship with God, the knowledge of His love and grace and mercy and leaning into the goodness of who He is as a loving Father, enjoying the gift of His righteousness as we’re being daily transformed to perfection by His Spirit in us.
The bedrock of Christianity is in the unconditional love of God, so unconditional that He gave us His best even while we were still sinners, to redeem us. God must hate majority and love only a few people if we're going by mums friends doctrine and that is such a senseless thought.

I have nothing against taking off your jewelry and not wearing any makeup, if that’s your personal conviction and not because someone puts a bounty of hell on you if you don’t. I know there are people who genuinely love God, are not religious freaks, and have had personal experiences to make them choose the plain path, but they are not going round bashing, judging and sentencing to hell those who don’t have the same conviction.

"You crazy Galatians! Did someone put a hex on you? Have you taken leave of your senses? Something crazy has happened, for it’s obvious that you no longer have the crucified Jesus in clear focus in your lives. His sacrifice on the cross was certainly set before you clearly enough.
Let me ask you this one question: Did you receive the [Holy] Spirit as the result of obeying the Law and doing its works, or was it by hearing [the message of the Gospel] and believing [it]? [Was it from observing a law of rituals or from a message of faith?] "
Gal 3:1-2(msg,amp with emphasis) 

We clearly don’t have the crucified Christ in focus when we go around with this mindset of laws and religion when grace has been given in Christ death, burial and resurrection. We’ve lost ourselves in a sea of religion… a set of rules to determine if we’re qualified or not to be called children of God. God knows if I had to work for righteousness, to keep sets of rules or laws, I would be grossly disqualified.
Thank God that He’s not a God that punishes me with horrible diseases just to teach me a lesson because I have red lipstick on.
Who has bewitched us? Put a hex on us?  These bewitched people are going round passing judgment and through fear causing people to move from a loving relationship with God to bondage of rules.

I was unfortunate to catch a part of a program on TV where the preacher was saying “how can you ask God to give you a child when you’re wearing trouseeees(Trousers)” It’s all hilarious, but same time heart wrenching, that after all Christ has done, we still insist on paying our way to heaven by keeping a bunch of rules. Looking gloomy isn’t proof of spirituality. What has my wearing trousers got to do with my ability to bear children?

I saw this post on FB, I’m not sure how it appeared on my timeline, as I'm not friends with the poster.... It's so sad to see how some people live in bondage all in the name of Christianity, you should read the comments underneath this post, people were actually applauding him and damning my weave wearing self. I just want to give us an idea how some people still live in bondage when God has freely given us freedom(I obviously don't endorse it by posting it). This is the hell checklist, as copied and unedited from FB… 

1) weavon
2) attachment
3) rubber thread
4) brazilian hair
5) lipstick
6) cortex
7) eyelash/eyeshadow/eye-brows
8) make-up
10) earring both big and tiny ones
11) any woman that wears trousers, even if the trouser is engraved women trouser
12) eye pencil
13) wearing jewry of any type or bead of any type
14) mini skirt, spaggetti, hot mini, show back, show breast, show waist, or wears any tight clothes that shows the body cleavage
15) bleaching cream or any cream that changes the natural colour of the body.
16) drawing of tattoes
17) perming or dieying of hair
18) watching worldly movies, soap opera's, listening to worldly music/secular music
19) going to clubbing/night club or attending worldly parties
20) being into boyfriend and girlfriend relationship
21) being into masturbation/ lesbianism
23) those that sag THIER skirt
and a fornicator, please repent now if you find yourself in any of the listed above or you end up in hell.

1F YOU STILL--------------------------------'
1) take or drink alcholic beverages such as star, gulder, hero, 33, small star, burukutu, kaikai, schnapp and so on,
2) those that still barb funky hair style such as galaxy, afro and so on
3) those that still sage THIER trousers and always expose THIER chest
4) those that draws tattoo or fix earring
5) those that break dance
6) those dance worldly-secular music
7) those that watch worldly movies/ soap opera's
8) those that listen or plays worldly music
9) those that smoke
10) those that are into girl friends relationship
11)those sells anything worldly, such as high heels, women trousers and so on
12)those That are homosexuals and fornicator
13) those that plays football
14) thosethat plays demonic games like war or violent games such as prince of persia, brothers in arm, clash of the titans, mortal combat, wrestling and so on, please repent now or perish forever in hell

And that folks is what the road paved to hell looks like, good thing he didn't list perfumes, at least I got something on me that is holy and acceptable, I can’t live a hell on earth heaven bond life not smelling good. I’d rather much just spread my salvation without body odor. 

Don’t be bewitched darlings.

Wednesday, December 16, 2015


I haven’t been regular here. I have dozens of reasons and excuses about how busy I’ve been, but that doesn’t cut it.
I just got back from Cyprus. I’ve done things beyond what I envisioned this year… and the chance to organize Incense in Cyprus has been so amazing. How beautiful is our God?
Alighthouse international is such a wonderful ministry, and Pastor Obi Anyi is such a blessing, I only got to meet him and in this three days I have been blessed by him.

We were born to worship! Oh, to know and experience the beauty that is found in the place of worship where we are lost in reckless abandon. Where a higher love collides with our fragile human heart and wrecks our soul with its beauty, blinding our eyes to self, and opening our minds to new possibilities and dimensions of truth… barriers are broken in these moments and we are released to worship in Spirit and truth.

In your messed up stance, knees bowed, tears streaking down and mascara ruined… everything stays on fleek!
We get our fleek on basking in Gods love and enjoying His presence in worship.
Maria Itodo... Got to organize INCENSE with this great woman of God.

Pastor Obi Anyi

Adakole William
N.U.T.T.Y Josh
Pastor Atom Ahura

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