Living The Dream...
As a little girl, I was desperate to know God and serve him, but I felt it was impossible, as just a select few were called to it.
Seeking, and feeling like He eluded me and giving up on my desire.
Watching Benny Hinn videos as a child and something in me reaching out for something in it(Now I understand it was the Holy Spirit )
Here’s an excerpt from my journal at 19.
𝐌𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝟏𝟑𝐭𝐡 𝐒𝐞𝐩𝐭𝐞𝐦𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟎𝟎𝟒
I feel emptiness, I feel heavy, lots of load on me, yet nothing in me. How does it all work? I try to pray, wishing it would work, but I only feel hollow as I mutter the somewhat rehearsed words, because I don’t feel a connection. I hate it when I’m told to pray during family prayers, because I feel I’m making God ignore us. How worthy am I to talk to God?
Sometimes I imagine myself having a one on one with God. I see flashes of me preaching and winning souls for God. But then it’s wishful thinking, if only my imaginations came through.”
15yrs later and I’m living my deepest desire. God does answer prayers.
Somewhere along the way, I started to encounter God in a way that was unique and precious. A near death experience broke me into my desire to be completely His, in a way that took me to the foundation of salvation beyond religion and showed me what love is, such that I am totally convinced of who He is to me and how good He is, that my faith in His goodness can never be shaken.
Finding myself in this foundation, built me up to be the person in a relationship with him that I had so desired. The frustrated cries of impossibilities in journals are realities being lived.
Just one day at a time, hearing his voice and yielding to his instructions to be and to do with the grace he provides.
As an 8/9year old girl, I made my dad take me for a crusade at IBB Square in Makurdi. (I don’t even remember who organized it, it just may have been a New Anointing crusade) Just because I always heard the radio jingles, I didn’t exactly understand, but my heart was drawn to it. That’s my 1st born again experience... although I may not have understood what i did then and just kept living like nothing happened, that was the day He and I signed the agreement to this life I live today.
I’m thankful for the father who willingly took his baby girl to a crusade to meet her Father, even when she had no idea what she was doing.
I’m living my dreams.
Having said all that, If more people saw God outside the confines of religion, painted out of the box it’s skillfully put Him into, we’d see him clearly as He really is.
We’d see His love.
We’d see His good will for us in the scriptures, so glaring, that there’s no room for arguing doctrines on social media.
(Oh, we’d see His anger, but we would know it isn’t directed at those who have embraced His love).
We’d have less proclaimed atheist who once sat within the confines of religion and got choked on disappointments, unmet expectations, impossible rules, placed under the rug of ideologies and could only throw up in rebellion for survival.
Less of those who say God is scam! Because the truth is, religion is scam and that’s what they collided with.
God is a good God... He’s not in the heartache and condemnation of your religion.
The gospel... the story of His love is distorted in the painting hung up in the secured section of the religious museum.
I’m glad I know Him for Him.
That I know everything about Him is great, even as I grasp to know more of Him, not just because it’s sung in a song or I’ve been told, but because I experience His goodness.... even in the disappointing moments I go through, I see His love.
Relationship with God is key; believing what He’s done for you In Christ! That is key, that is truth, that is life. The flesh and blood of our salvation!
Every other thing/principle with no foundation in this truth is scam! This Christian life is about the perfect sacrifice, that is an offshoot from the root of great Love.
“It’s not about changing Religion, It’s about experiencing the Love of Christ” - Rev. Arome Adah
Despite all you’ve heard about my Father (the threats and manipulation in his name), let this truth stand out... God is Good, and He is love and He loves you.
We’d see His good will for us in the scriptures, so glaring, that there’s no room for arguing doctrines on social media.
(Oh, we’d see His anger, but we would know it isn’t directed at those who have embraced His love).
We’d have less proclaimed atheist who once sat within the confines of religion and got choked on disappointments, unmet expectations, impossible rules, placed under the rug of ideologies and could only throw up in rebellion for survival.
Less of those who say God is scam! Because the truth is, religion is scam and that’s what they collided with.
God is a good God... He’s not in the heartache and condemnation of your religion.
The gospel... the story of His love is distorted in the painting hung up in the secured section of the religious museum.
I’m glad I know Him for Him.
That I know everything about Him is great, even as I grasp to know more of Him, not just because it’s sung in a song or I’ve been told, but because I experience His goodness.... even in the disappointing moments I go through, I see His love.
Relationship with God is key; believing what He’s done for you In Christ! That is key, that is truth, that is life. The flesh and blood of our salvation!
Every other thing/principle with no foundation in this truth is scam! This Christian life is about the perfect sacrifice, that is an offshoot from the root of great Love.
“It’s not about changing Religion, It’s about experiencing the Love of Christ” - Rev. Arome Adah
Despite all you’ve heard about my Father (the threats and manipulation in his name), let this truth stand out... God is Good, and He is love and He loves you.
So i read this quietly.......
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