who am i?

"I write for the unlearned about things in which I am unlearned myself." - CS Lewis, Reflections on the Psalms
Showing posts with label holidays. Show all posts
Showing posts with label holidays. Show all posts

Sunday, February 6, 2011

I'm headed for heathrow in a few hours.
Its been fun while it lasted.
couple of months away, it almost feels like i was escaping reality.
but i refuse to dignify that thought with a response. Its back to the hustling.
I'm lighter now, no,i'm not bleaching, i guess i'll have a few days to enjoy my new complexion in nigeria before the sun tones me down. Who knows i might get to experience the 'awesome goodness of life' all those who bleach get when they become multicolored...but then, maybe not, i'm not a patch of black and white...oh well *sigh* i guess i'll never know.
so maybe i'm blabbling cos i don't want to think about the heartbreak i'll be experiencing in a bit. Not kissing my baby niece and taking in the freshness of her.
Not having the bigger girls bug me out with stories i'd rather not hear....its all love.
not seeing my dearest and sweet big sister every day and stalking my brother every other day.
and lots more.
i'll miss going to church on sundays, and window shopping at brentcross after church, then taking bus 189 to oxford circus, just because i want to be on my own, seating on the top deck and listening to refreshing music on my ipod....

The holiday didnt go as i planned in some ways, but then God works in mysterious ways, i learnt a lot from it, and i got to experience what it means to be fed by the ravens like in elijahs case.

Well its back to the real real reality, and then i start to work on every loosed ends. And even though i'm a little bit scared of reality, i walk into it knowing Gods got my back, thus i'm ready to move mountains, and  close the biggest deals ever, and no client dares to disappoint me at the last min:) cos someborry go wound real bad.

Saturday, January 1, 2011

In the beginning...

"In the beginning God created.... "

I crossed into the new year with no significant change in my life, we all do. We still look the same, our body doesn't automatically transform to the size 6 we will it to be and the bad habit doesn't 'pick race' from us...although we've got it all written down as our new year resolution.
But there's something about that clock striking 12, something snaps in us, and that snap makes us all determined to conquer the world in the new year. We see the clock striking 12midnight on the evening of December 31st as the beginning of a new era....  A new year, a new beginning, another chance to be start afresh, make right all the wrong and be the wonderful people we were created to be. Its not always easy, before the end of the first week, we're doing a double portion of all doing the things we swore off.

In the beginning "...the earth was formless and empty, darkness was over the surface of the deep, and the Spirit of God was hovering over the waters" Genesis 1:2-3. 
A place/life described as 'formless, empty and dark" is quite useless, nothing worth caring about. But Gods spirit was hovering, waiting for a word from God, for permission to change it all "..and God said, “Let there be light,” and there was light. God saw that the light was good, and he separated the light from the darkness. God called the light “day,” and the darkness he called “night.” And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day" Genesis 1:3-5

The past year/the old, may have been formless, empty, dark and gloomy, but there's a chance for a fresh start... the spirit of God is hovering around, desperate to do wonderful things for us, he's just waiting for that word from God, and Gods waiting for that word from us, because he certainly is a gentle man, he refuses to force himself on us.
The word that calls on him to take control of our beginning and forever, the word that moves him to say "let there be..." in our lives, the wonderful things we hope for, joy unspeakable, righteousness,peace, health,prosperity...... and the spirit gladly manifests it.

"And there was evening, and there was morning—the first day...." notice how the bible emphasizes on evening first? Even though it says God created light first? morning before evening. It could easily have said "and there was morning and there was evening"
This excites me, the evening represents the darkness we go through, it passes away and then comes our morning with light that fills out hearts,boldness, a renewal of our hope for better things and a life giver to our dreams that appeared dead.

And then there was morning after the evening. Don't get discouraged about the year just because you couldn't tick off a couple of things on your 'to do' list for the year 2010 and all the years past.
Don't give up on God, cos he definitely has not given up on you.
This is the year where our morning takes over from the past evenings of our lives. The years of darkness have been overthrown.
Remember to invite God to your beginning, so he can speak the word that brings about your joy.

Here's to a new beginning people. Say bye bye to the old and welcome the new. All will be well with us this year because Jesus reigns.


Sunday, December 26, 2010


I looked round and saw hundreds of guest. it was my special day and everyone in town looked forward to celebrating it. Well, except a few haters who stayed away.
You never missed it, my birthday, the talk of town, the IT event of the year.

It felt wonderful seeing them go all out to celebrate me. I saw expensive new dresses, sparkly shoes, glamorous hair dos and dazzling smiles. No one could keep gloomy for long on my special day.

The music....the best musicians from everywhere composed special songs and performed just for me.
the food....how do the say it in Italian? delizioso
People threw away those funny diets, a day calories welcome with open arms.
there was dancing, the goofy to the wonderful moves.
Love was in the air. For the good cheer in the room was enough to break any ice between people.

It made me glad i was born, if only for a day like this. I was born for a purpose, i was born out of love, and my birth brings people of all class together.
But then in the midst of it all, the merry making and the laughter, my heart broke.
As much as everyone was joyful and celebrating my day, very few people even acknowledged me the celebrant.
everyone was out for my special day
but no one really cared about me, the celebrant
just few said 'happy birthday Jesus, thank you for becoming flesh for our sake. Your gift of love to us"

Monday, March 29, 2010

holiday is over...

luxury is just a state of mind......well thats if you take away the leg cramps from flying in a class not first, and the fact that your hotel has no spa, and the view from you room is .....well just a view, then you'll agree with me.
from booking for a room at the grand hyatt hotel, to cancelling and preparing to lodge with my aunt at the jumeira beach hotel, to not being able to make the trip with her, to facing some minor challenges thus making a new budget for my trip and staying in a three star hotel. this is the description of my hotel on its website
"Fronting one of the most picturesque port in Dubai, Offering spectacular views of Dubai’s sunsets from its large frame windows as well as breathtaking expanses of Arabian Sea, Highland City Hotel welcomes you to Dubai."
now thats laughable. dont get me wrong, the service was perfect, the standard was definitely higher than a mere 3star hotel. the room was nice and although there was no spa, there was a sauna and a roof top pool *rolling eyes*. The best part was its location, in the heart of town, close to everywhere i cared to visit, thus i had a real holiday as i got time to explore the town and do other things apart from shopping.

the view from my 3rd floor room, i had to tilt the camera to get this view, right in front of me was a brick wall. so much for a spectacular view.

this on the other hand is a view from my 36th floor room in marriot habor hotel.

i had to stand on tip toe to take this from the hotels 7th floor roof top pool.

then i climbed a chair to get this shot of the 'breath taking expanse of the arabian sea". indeed websites will so sell you.

compared to the view from the fifth floor poolside in the dubai marina hotel. i didnt need to stand on tip toe for this shot:)

the dubai mall is so huge i'd be disgusted if it wasnt so beautiful, its the biggest mall in the world, think all the shops in major shopping districts in the world and some unknown holed up in one big building, thats sure to depress. thus rather than get myself depressed i busied myself with the other attractions of the mall,like watching the indoor massive waterfall, walking through the aquarium tunnel which has more than 33,000 living animals, more than 85 species including over 400 sharks and rays combined, and visiting the malls underwater zoo which had loads of facinating sea creatures you could reach out and touch.

a lil sharky right above my head. with the story of the aquarium leak a few weeks back,lets just say i had my Jaw moments doing this walk.

the dancing fountain at the dubai mall.
the fountain was spectacular. Andrea bocelli is one my favorite artist and i totally love 'time to say goodbye' watching the fountains dance to it was so emotional for me. dont have time to upload my videos of it, so heres a clip from youtube. there was a bollywood number too.

the burj Khalifa tower, the worlds tallest building has been closed indefinitely after the lift incident. Now even if it was open, i wouldnt have been on the queue to get to the observation deck. i wouldnt want to be a victim of another failed lift system.
i did the desert safari with blogger tintin, it was scarily exciting, wonder why i never did it before. My heart died a thousand times when we dune bashed, i rode the quad bike, though was too faint hearted ride it daringly....

I even had a charlotte sex and the city moment,you know the episode in either season 2 or 3 where the sales guy in a shoe shop had a shoe fetish and offered her free shoes if she'd just try on a few pairs for him.
it was a fun trip and i'm glad i did it, 5star or 3star who cares?

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Santa baby

Mom got me an ipod nano, I've had my previous ipod for over 4yrs. Twas about sueing me for abuse:)
My christmas list is been ticked off.

Here's britney spears version of santa baby, added my own lines to it

Santa baby
Just slip a personal spa therapist under the tree for me
Been an aweful good girl
Santa baby
A first class ticket to everywhere I want
With a black mastercard to go with it
Santa baby
So hurry down the chimney tonight.

Santa baby,
A fifty four convertable too
Hot red
I'll wait up for you dear,
Santa baby
So hurry down the chimney tonight
Yeah yeah
(Oops santa, we don't have no chimney so just walk through the door with the papers of ownership)

Santa sugar,
Think of all the fun I've missed
Think of all the fellas that I haven't kissed
Think of how I've kept little kids believe in you real
Next year I'll be just as good
If you check off my christmas list

Santa baby
I want a yatch and really that's not a lot,(I could have asked for a jet)
I've been an angel most of the year
Santa baby
So hurry through the door tonight

Santa honey,
there's one more thing I really do need(well there's a lot, but I'll whisper those in your ears when we see)
The deed to a plantinum or gold mine
Santa honey,
So hurry with the purchase tonight

Come sweety santa
And trim my christmas tree,
With jewelry bought at tiffanys
I really do believe in you...sort of
Let's see if you believe in me
So hurry through the mall tonight.

Santa baby
Forgot to mention one little thing
A ring
And I don't mean on the phone
The one that's got those beautiful sparkly stones
Delivered by a man on bended knees
Santa baby
So hurry through with your babys list today.

Ok, so I'm quite bored. We're(sis and bro) on a 3hr road trip from abuja to makurdi. I got to keep myself busy:)
Sent from my BlackBerry wireless device from MTN

Saturday, January 3, 2009


Happy newyear!
2009...Who would have thought
It is my year of self discovery, aggressive pursuit of happiness and fulfillment.
God bless us all this year.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

feliz navidad!!!!

happy holidays y'all!
i love Christmas....
i always miss out on all the Christmas parties in Lagos this season..
i had a blast in abuja.....
i'm home in makurdi for Christmas
every street corner is familiar with a memory linked to it.
childhood friends and family friends are in town,
its fun Playing with the boys and making the girls cry like i do every Christmas(i joke),
but this is when hating is at its best and you can actually laugh in the face of haters
I'm sleeping in bed with mummy...cosy cosy cosy!
the harmattans on, its dry and cold and dusty and just so beautiful,the weather says everything Christmas to me....
we didn't bring out the Christmas tree this year, the living room looks drab without it,instead there's a clutter of wii pieces everywhere as my sis and i justle about in the name of playing the game.my nieces aren't home to make decorating the tree a fun job, the house is drab with just a few of us home
i haven't played christmas carols like i should, i haven't played them at all.
we're busy seating together as a family and 'gisting' about everything that's happened this year.
making expensive international calls and staying on forever trying to make the others feel like they really are missing and we're having fun without them
then we goof around
then we eat like gluttons, cookies, cakes, fried goat, peppered chicken, coke, coke, coke, and pounded yam in its originality etc .....
then we take the 40min drive to go visit grandma, and eat some more, her world famous soups(yes they really are a treat, and people just keep going back to hers).....
i've got a long long list for santa baby, but i know there are loads of people with a long long list too,
so imma wait till after christmas when santa baby is a bit rested, then he'll have time to savor the feel of me on his laps and listen attentively as i whisper my needs one by one.

MERRY CHRISTMAS EVERYONE and have a blessed one.
don't forget the reason for the season....
and lets all be jolly.
'tis a season to be jolly.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

another sting!!!!

My holiday went perfectly well ,to an extent, well that’s if we take out the details of the attitudes i got from my sister(leaving me alone in the mall and me almost getting missing since it was my first time and her second she knew the way more than i did); add all the luxury of it. we stayed at the Marriot Harbour hotel and apartment in dubai marina(i know, not the atlantis or the burj, but next time, whatever ours was a 5star too), our three bedroom suite on the 30th floor had such a beautiful view of the marina. it was so glamorous, the resturants were out of this world, the resturant at the obsevartory on the 52nd floor with a breath taking view of dubai marina and palm jumeirah. the spa was glorious and so chic, we were treated like some hollywood stars, my sis and i made them wonder who we really were:) with all the shopping and bla bla bla I’ll save the story for another day.

I got back home, went to work on Monday, avoided my GM, I walked to his office when I was about closing for the day, I overheard him laughing , decided I wasn’t in the mood for fake smiling with the boss and walked away.
The next morning as we prepared for the EGM of the company, I heard he was dead, that’s the disadvantage of getting every news that comes before every other person, because you're freinds with the directors. Apparently he slumped in the office when he went to get some files to meet us at the lagoon for the meeting, he was rushed to reddington where he died.

I had to go about the meeting smiling like I knew nothing when inside I was screaming. Not him, how? I didn’t even say hello to him a day before, I heard him laugh….
He liked me, he kept telling some clients I was ‘staff of the year’ a day before I traveled, the last time I sat down with him, he laughed and asked me if I knew what his driver called me? I said I did ‘asa’ and he told me asa means beautiful in igbo.
He wasn’t so popular with the staff, but he was nice to me.

I was at the hospital after the meeting, I refused to go in to see his body, but as he was wheeled into the ambulance to move him to a mortuary I saw his body wrapped up and there was this feeling of 'jeez lifes got jokes'
I headed to the airport for porthacourt, I felt dreadful during the flight, I kept seeing the lifeless form of his body floating in the clouds as i kept wondering how possible…I didn’t sleep that night.

I’m back to the office for the first time since he died last week. I’m really not that weak I think, but I dreaded coming in, I had a near panic attack, I’m holding on to my inhaler. I cant bring myself to go downstairs to his office where he slumped, I heard his shoes are still in there and his jacket.
Life’s sad.
I saw the papers yesterday, the net is full of stories, they said he died of cardiac arrest from the downward trend of the market. What a joke that paper should be sued.
I’m trying to get myself together to work today.

I’m not sure if I’m to say ‘rest in peace’ cos I remember 30+ saying it doesn’t make sense saying that.
So I guess adieu it is.

Sunday, October 12, 2008

my sunday...

heard i'm in this sundays thisday style...i didn't get the papers today :( so havent seen it. but from the description of my outfit by the 'see'ers' the pic was taken at the recently held 'nigerians next super model' show, as long as i wasnt being dissed which i wasnt(i've got style so no fears) and so long as i'm not on the 'do not' list then i can be right smack in the pages.

its funny the first thing i thought of was 'damn and i was going to wear that outfit in two weeks'
i'm still wearing it, i cant let one of my best ever deola sagoe pieces go to waste:)
i always have a mocking word for those 'friends/people' i regard as 'socialites' when i sight them in the style pages, so i'm not sure what to feel now, hypocritical if i say i've got a feel good thingy about it and also hypocritical if i say i'm not so sure how i feel. but who cares.

had my nails done today, i love it ;) turayo at nail place is the best.
then went to terraculture, its no Broadway but its just as lovely. twas trials of brother jerome and the sequence. oh, how we laughed, it was fun, it was well played out, it was much more than i expected. i'm glad i got invited by my friend. i've always wanted to go for the plays at terra, but no friend seem to be theater inclined like i am, the thought of going alone fazed me, now i know its no biggie going alone,i'll get to meet new people. i'll be doing that more often. trials of brother jerome will be playing all month, and next month the lion and the jewel would start. i'll definitely be seeing that. plus the price is good enough, N2000 for tickets. it runs at 3pm and 6pm respectively.

i'm not prepared for my trip, not as excited as i was when mom was in the picture, haven't changed currencies, haven't packed, i hate packing. especially whenever i know i'll be doing loads of shopping. if i had my way i'd never pack more than one change of clothes cos i always get new things so whats the point, but i cant do without taking more than i need, just incase. i'm the master of excesses, partly cos i dont know how to pack well and stuff things in suitecases,so i know what excess luggage i'll be coming back with.
i'll try and have as much fun outside shopping as i can .

church was solemnly exciting, we were compelled to renew our covenant with God, and he'll deliver us.
talking of covenants/promises/vows....we all take it as a joke today, especially in the most sacred of them all...marriage. its appalling the number of married people prowling the streets and chasing after girls.
i made a pledge and i redeemed it. it was hard, i kept thinking, i dont have to, they dont need it, i can get away with not coming through afterall they're family and they'll still love me.
but i did go through with it and i'm glad, the thankyous melted the heavyness in me that i was sweet and thoughtful and all the goods,
i'm glad i went through with it, cos seeing them proud of me has made my year. its got a feel good enzyme i've been dwelling in.

have a great week y'all!

Tuesday, January 1, 2008


HAPPY NEW YEAR Y'ALL!!!! i made it, we all made it YIPEEE....
I made it a habit of giving eachnewyear themes, it was a childish thing at first but now i take it serious, last year was my year of fairies and angels...and boy, it sure revealed itselve to be truly that.I’m glad I made it through and I did so with my loved ones, that’s one of the greatest gifts. What I want most is a new beginning, and I feel what I do on the first day of the new year would help determine how good the year would be for me. i desperately want my year to be filled with possibilities, with second chances… a second chance to be a better person, to make things right and do what i'm supposed to. I wish it were all as easy as it sounds…but nothing in this world is ever so simple, even the tiniest of them.
i chose fairies and angels as my theme for this year because i love the idea of fairies and angels... angels always are in my opinion sweet, kind, strong, and charming beings God created to guide us through life, protect us through dangers, fight off our fears, hold us and dry our tears when we cry, the idea that they are so sweet and gentle yet so strong and fierce is absoluely charming...fairies on the other hand comes in from my world of fantasy, where there are fairy godmothers to transform us from rags to dresses of silk and chiffon on our very blue and down days... in the world of faiiries you know you'll always see the sun and after ever hard turn, there is always a happily ever after...i want my life to be about that and even more this year, filled with angels and fairies...wish you same too if you dont think me insane...

its kind of funny how we take things for granted, there we were after such a fun time at the bbq(now i've been told i throw wonderful parties), i'm a good host, thanks to mom...anyway i was saying, we went in to pray into the new year and as we prayed it hit me hard that we are really blessed, january till now and we're still kicking, all the journeys, all the rougues harrasing people, all the illness and we are still alive, thats enough to be thankful about. as my cousin would say 'not because i'm prettier than them, but because i'm blessed'....

i dont do resolutions, i used to, but i realised the more i made plans of do's and don't at the begining of the year, the more i'm prone to break em', sort of like thats when my spirit deciedes to tease me and bring temptation my way, so no resolutions, just the resolve to go with the flow as long as it goes the right direction and yes theres a little resolution or two i couldnt help storing in my head 'get closer to God, and get myself a boyfriend'...the second might sound pathetic, like a desperate lil' girl, but its anything but that, i'm tired of my pretty girl bulshit, the independent woman who cantake care of herself, who doesnt need a man...well i may be that, but truth is, i'm tired, all the shakara must come to an end someday shei?


Monday, December 17, 2007

lifes good......

gosh, i've been having a jolly good time, my nieces are home, my sisters too. we're all back home with mom, i'm so loving the time we're spending together. haven't checked my mails in ages or blogged anywhere in ages, kind of a detox from it all....lifes good innit?.

is it me or did this year just pass by so fast?(okay, i know everyones been saying it so it's obviously not me) its like an express train which just goes non stop to the end. i can still remember exactly what i was doing on this day last year, thats because it just feels like yesterday. i love this time of the year, the Christmas carols, the anticipation of christmas day and all the goodness it holds.its really fun, laying all the colours and seeing the tree transform from an old fig to a colorful and bright beauty....
what do i want for xmas? the list is endless, and i enjoy writing them cos somehow i just feel that by putting my wishes down on paper no matter how impossible they seem, theres always a chance that it may come true, and its always exciting to see at least one thing ticked off as achieved. i've gotten the laptop, the wristwatch, still no iphone, fingers crossed on that...

what good have i achieved this year?... i dunno, but it hasnt ended yet, i've still got about three weeks to go, maybe something extra ordinarily pleasant will happen. last year i know i messed up a lot, things better left forgotten but still hanging somewhere in the surface. my birthday was on the 6th of july, but i didnt do anything extra special to mark it because i didnt feel extra special.i was still in the deep end of being scary and damaged, but this year,i had a blast on my bday and most of the year. hopefully i'm approaching sunny and bright days... wish me luck!

i'm loving my time away from work, gosh, moms making me feel good again, i'm back to being her 24hr jeans wearing baby...except i fight for her attention with my nieces.i love the weather....its so christmases...cold and dry and dusty, thats the north for you, the harmatan just rocks my world, i sleep with no a/c or fan and my butt just freezes off...life definitely is good.
hope y'all having as much fun this season...
Related Posts Plugin for WordPress, Blogger...