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"I write for the unlearned about things in which I am unlearned myself." - CS Lewis, Reflections on the Psalms

Monday, September 22, 2014

More, More... More!


I hate the process of shopping, but I love buying new things. And so whenever I get a chance to travel where I can shop, I try to squeeze my cash to buy as much as I can.
I have a satisfied look on my face when I look at my new possessions, especially when most of them have been bought at a bargain. What a feeling!! I wouldn’t need to shop for a long long long time. I have all I need.
That’s till I’m back home and searching through my clothes in frustration, both the old and the new and I cry out how I have nothing to wear. Nothing! Not in all the pile of newbies.

I recently got back from London after about five months away. While it wasn’t a holiday or a shopping trip, I can’t honestly say I didn’t shop, because I did, I came home with extra suitcases filled with clothes. I got new things, for my new size… I was content. Until I turn my room upside down looking for something to wear every other day… I had absolutely nothing to wear!

The statement, I have nothing to wear is a statement of fact as opposed to one of vanity! My name ought to appear right after that quote.
The truth is, two new suitcases or four is never enough clothes.
You may spend thousands of pounds and think this is it… but it really isn’t it in the long run.

I’ve never read through the bible back to back. But I have read my bible. You may feel like you’ve read the whole of the bible or a certain book in it and there’s nothing more you can gain from it… and then you start reading that book or chapter or verse again, there’s always more, even when you feel like you’ve gotten it all.
There was a time I felt like I had written all I had to write, where in the world would I get more words or insights? That was three or four years ago…. You can never exhaust the word of God and the Wisdom and inspiration He gives. Kathryn Kulhman expresses this truth “I had preached on heaven. I had preached on hell. I had preached on the love of God – you know- and what more was there to preach about? But years have found out that you can never exhaust the deep truths in Gods word”


You know how we say, life is simpler if you have just two outfits or there about, it’s either one or the other when it comes to choosing what to wear. You have no luxury of having an option, or being depressed about not knowing which trouser to pair with the blue shirt when it’s only one pair of trouser you have. Today it’s the white shirt, tomorrow the blue… everything is as it is.
When you have a basic, surface knowledge of Jesus, the one who you go visiting with on Sundays, there’s nothing much there, nothing more your soul desires. It’s got the basic Jesus, the one who they tell you is mad when you sin and happy when you do good. The one who sends people to hell for sin, and rewards heaven for good, and life is just plain with that plain distorted knowledge, there is no luxury of having more, and knowing more and desiring more.
But when you’ve gone beyond the basic, knowing God for who He is, understanding even a pinch of what He’s done for you and how much He loves you, you will crave more, you wouldn’t stay mocking those who have Him and search for more… You wouldn’t make fun of those who love going to church and events where the word would be preached… The more you know Him, the more you want to know Him. There is always more with God.



I’ve taken stock and I realize that I attend church a little too much, not to me though, the opinions of others. So what’s the catch of regular church attendance, why do I feel a need to attend all the meetings when I see the billboards/handbills? Not because I’m looking for cute church boys, not because I feel compelled to as a religious obligation, not because in some twisted way, I want to please God and manipulate Him with the number of times I attend services. Why am I always just coming from church or I was in church when you called? Because I am not satisfied… All I have taken In looks like it can last me a life time, but it doesn’t come close to satisfaction. I’m greedy for more of Him.

Like a girl can never have enough clothes… you can never satisfy this want for more of God, because there is always more. I hunger and thirst for Him, for more of Him, for the beauty of Him, the more I get filled, the more I want to take in, I am determined to know Him and the power of His resurrection…


3 comments :

  1. That quote struck a chord, it's meant to nudge me into a self check

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  2. WOW i love this post i feel the same way whenever i let life take over and i havent indulged my self in the word of God i start feeling uneasy it a wierd feel to explain

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