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Monday, May 18, 2015

Stirring of The Waters...

Sometimes, events of our lives flow as peaceful as a stream. Things are so perfect, (either our marriage, relationships, careers, finances etc.) gliding through life easy and free until suddenly there’s a slight disruption, or more than a slight one… The stirring of the waters by certain events that happen, and everything seems to be thrown off course. There are bubbles, ripples, waves, everything far from the tranquility you enjoyed. It’s in those moments we start to panic, and we start to freak out. A stirring indicates disruption.

But something gets me in the story of the pool of Bethesda “For an angel of the Lord went down at appointed seasons into the pool and moved and stirred up the water; whoever then first, after the stirring up of the water, stepped in was cured of whatever disease with which he was afflicted.” John 5:4(amp)
Whenever the water was stirred, that was when the miracle was released. Huh!!! The peaceful pool didn’t have the miracle; it was the disrupted flow that offered them something.

Isn’t that great? If you feel like the steady stream like flow of your life is being disrupted, even in all the confusion it brings, #chillBabychill. For in the stirring is a miracle. It’s been stirred for change, for a greater purpose, to lift up and not to disrupt your otherwise perfect life. We get too comfortable in certain situations that it takes a stirring to give us the change for the better we need. I’m not saying miracles and better are only birthed through conflict… I’m saying, if there’s an affliction right now, there’s trouble that’s got you up all night, there’s a relationship that’s hit the rocks or a job that’s turbulent, even in all the pain and confusion, trust in your God, that you’re coming out better, changed and on to the next level.

My life has been a steady peaceful stream, but it’s recently felt like it’s been stirred up. I’m hovering between being depressed, and holding my head up high knowing God’s got me. One of my comfort food in this moment is knowing and believing that there is a blessing in the stirring, and I just can’t wait for what’s coming out of this. I’m so expectant even in this disruption.

Have a blessed week people. Remember, if it’s been stirred, then it’s stirred for a breakthrough.

Be utterly amazed, He's doing something in/through your life that would be too good to be true when it comes to pass. This little hitch that makes you question is a bend, definitely not an end. Keep trusting!

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Mangoes, Rainbows and Circumcisions...

I wrote a post on mangoes some years ago and as I lay in bed one morning recently, I heard the thudding sound of mangoes dropping outside my bedroom window and I knew I had to do another post as it resounded deep in my heart. Every morning, the mangoes drop and we have buckets filled to the brim with juicy tasty ripe mangoes. It’s in season; it’s season to bare fruits and how effortless it is to enjoy the fruits of this tree. After the mango tree has produced its fruit in season, it goes through a process that prepares it for the next season of fruitfulness.

God works in us in times and seasons as well. In the fruitful season, where everything is a walk in the park, He is God and grace is at work as much as grace is at work in the season where we feel empty, like nothing is going right.
After you have served your purpose effortlessly, you enter a season where you have to get nourished again. Where you are processed and prepared for another season of effortless fruitfulness, to be an endless blessing to those around you.
Your soul is being rejuvenated and tilled as it goes through a season to prepare it for another season of fruitfulness.(Romans 5:3-5)

Joyce Meyer taught on rainbows and the circumcisions. And from that teaching, I have aptly named these seasons rainbow season and circumcision season. The rainbow seasons are where everything is great, and the circumcision is where you go through the process to prepare you for that greatness. The trials that bring you out stronger and deeply rooted in your faith, with lessons for others who need it. When the rain stops, the mango tree is still connected to its source, still deeply rooted and planted, and a process is taking place within it. We don’t see what happens, but suddenly we begin to see a bud of a green new fruit, that eventually turns out to be the sweet succulent fruit we enjoy.
As long as you’re deeply rooted and connected to your source, Jesus, you’re all right, even when things don’t seem to be working out well. Christ is enough…. His grace abounds in moments where we see the physical results and in moments when we don’t see it. Grace works in all seasons. I saw this on T.D Jakes instagram page and it aptly captures what I’m trying to say here…

The presence of PAIN does not mean the absence of GRACE. God gives us Grace to get through what we’re going through. But Grace doesn’t stop you from bleeding, it stops you from dying. Gods grace is sufficient. (2 cor 12:9) T.D Jakes

Even when you go through the fire, God calls you blessed, He doesn’t see you as disadvantaged! It’s beautiful how in the beatitudes, everyone who goes through the afflictions and seemingly disadvantaged positions mentioned is referred to as blessed, and what great rewards are attached to them… they all have a promise of such great light at the end of the tunnel. Blessed are the poor in spirit, blessed are the that mourn, blessed are the meek, blessed are they which hunger and thirst after righteousness, blessed are the merciful, blessed are the pure in heart, blessed are the peacemakers, blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake…(Matthew 5:3-12)
Even when you go through trials, God calls you blessed, and what fruitfulness awaits you in the end of that season.

I feel dry and empty… I barely have the will to write or do anything. I just had my high moment, I published a book, and sweet, juicy, succulent mangos dropped with little or no effort, a physical evidence of a grace downpour, a rainbow season. And now I feel dry and empty, a little unfruitful and struggling in a relationship, but in this moment, my soul is being rejuvenated, my spirit is getting refreshed, endurance is built. I attended a great conference; I am being processed in the word of God and wonderful messages I’ve come across, I am getting ready from the nourishing of my soul for another season of beauty and rainbows. So even in this circumcision season, I see grace at work in abundance. This is where we find the peace God promises, peace not like the world gives… peace even when you feel like there should be more.

Like the mango tree, stay put and connected to your source, He’ll never let you down, His grace abounds and you’ll be just fine because you are in Him and He’s got you, no matter how the circumcision hurts, God’s got you child, and His love is carrying you through to the rainbow season, where all you’ve been refined with would be a blessing to not just you but the world. You are blessed even in this… for all seasons.

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Be Found... Colour 2015!

"‘The Whisper’ is personal. It whispers “be found” - be found in His love, be found in His wisdom and goodness, be found in His peace and purpose. Be found so that others may find hope through you."

The last couple of days have been spent soaking up in God’s presence at the Hillsong Color conference London. Words cannot begin to describe the beauty of it. Thousands of women from different countries trooped to Wembley. Everyone with a different story, a different pain, a different beauty and hope, and as different as we all were, we all had one desperate hunger… Jesus! And how well He was served to us. I received His word on a platter of gold, from women I have looked up to for so long.

When you make that statement "My life is changed forever" and you mean it with all your heart! Seating under the teachings of these great women of God Bobbie Houston, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, Dawnchere Wilkerson and listening to Pastor Brian Houston bare his heart out to us has been one of the most defining moments for me, and I haven't even gotten to the worship experience yet!  Brooke Fraser took us there!!!
Sometimes during worship, I would open my eyes and be overwhelmed by the hands lifted up in worship, lost in the Father's love and surrendered to His will and goodness.

My greatest desire is to know more of God; I thirst and hunger for more of Him, and each new experience shows Him in a greater dimension... What more can I ask for, when I find the answer to every question, every challenge, every joy and pain in His love. In getting lost in His love, I found myself and it gets more beautiful each day.

I'm sharing a few of the pictures from the Colour blog and from my camera...

A little flourish wall selfie.. We are colors of the worlds! Day 1

I got to do colour with my friend Joy! Day 2

Day 3

Brooke Fraser and Bobbie Houston... Lifting the name of Jesus

"The story of us is only going to be found as we live under declarations that are glorious and dangerous" Bobbie Houston
Different nations, different stories, woven together in one atmosphere of worship, where Christ is the center. Hands lifted up in total awe and surrender.

"Never loose gratitude for the littlest things... Live gratefully, live prayerfully, live with integrity" Brian Houston
-->  "Everybody gets something and everybody doesn't get something" Joyce Meyer
Dawnchere brought a dynamite to light up the house with the word... Slow Burn! The fire that precedes the dynamite is slow, steady and almost invincible, but it's effect cannot be ignored... DYNAMITE!

--> "Communicate three things; Christ Story, my story, Our story" Beth Moore

Saturday, April 18, 2015

The Imperfectly Paved Path to Perfection...

His lineage isn’t of perfection. Lots of imperfection paved the path for the coming of the Messiah. There’s a schemer, Tamar, who slept with her father in law. Jacob stole his brother’s birthright. There’s David and Bathsheba, a tale of adultery, deceit and murder. There’s a prostitute in the mix, Rahab’s story wasn’t masked, thank God the imperfections weren’t hidden in Jesus lineage, to show that we have a hope even when we feel hopeless, to show that we are useful even in our mess. There’s a perfect story of grace emerging from our imperfect selves. Thank God for grace.

You’ve messed up? You’re perfect for Jesus to use you, for Him to come to the world of someone through you.
God’s grace qualifies us to be a part of His great plans. Not what we have and haven’t done. He uses our mistakes and our deceit for His glory… How bad can you go? How bad have you been? Wipe the tears, dust the dirt and enough with putting yourself down in a gully of self condemnation… there’s such a glorious hope and future for you, there’s such greatness that can change the world waiting to be birthed through you. Remember, there is therefore now condemnation… He doesn’t condemn you; He loves you and is ever willing to use you, stay with Him!
For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world that He [even] gave up His only begotten (unique) Son, so that whoever believes in (trusts in, clings to, relies on) Him shall not perish (come to destruction, be lost) but have eternal (everlasting) life.
For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him
John 3:16-17(AMP)

Monday, April 13, 2015

On Kissing and Telling... The Joy In Telling!

15:03:15 I had a perfect evening. It didn’t matter anymore, the fact that I had to fight back tears and a ton of anger and feelings of betrayal from someone I held dear hours before. It didn’t matter, because once I got into my dress, I felt like a princess, and I knew the world was mine to conquer. I held back tears at different times when I heard people speak. I saw the pride in the eyes of my loved ones, and the excitement in the eyes of my friends.

I lost a lot of weight recently and people have given me their opinions on my weight loss. As good as I felt with my body, I began to worry and get a little self-conscious. But on this day, I owned my body… Away from their opinions and away from the self-consciousness. This day was me, stepping into the path of royalty that has been set before me from the beginning of time in my Style by Cecil and Virgos lounge dresses.
I really can’t explain the feeling. But have you ever felt so free? Like you could just spin and dance and fly away from all the lightness in you? I felt that way. I danced like I had never danced before… in public. I felt drunk and I was aptly so in my spirit.

People wondered why I would have my launch in Makurdi, why not Lagos? But I told myself, why not Makurdi? I grew up there. My family is there and for now, why deny your roots because it doesn't look as glamorous as where you want to be? I'm glad in the end I proved them wrong. You can have a wonderful occasion, wherever you are, and you can thrive even in a seemingly dry land. Looking forward to the Kiss and Tell Lagos event though!

15:03:15 was one of the happiest days of my life. I don't feel like I just launched a book, I feel like I launched out. God has been so good. It felt good to be celebrated! What wows me is this truth I know within, that I haven't seen anything yet... the path of the righteous shines brighter and brighter. That day may have been bright for me, but it's so dim compared to what's coming.
Enjoy the pictures… I had to cut down on the number of pictures to post, so i just showed me off with the pictures I chose :) :(

My sister makes the best cakes!!!

Mr. William Anyebe did an awesome job reviewing my book. I got schooled on my work.

Adakole William and I Singing the Kiss and Tell theme song, I bet y'all didn't know I could sing... I can't!

Dr. King and Lady Patience Omudu, Senior Pastors, Shelter Of Glory Makurdi.

And a not to clear video of the performance of the Kiss and Tell song

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