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Thursday, July 2, 2015

Incense... A Worship Experience!


"The time has come for a revival of public worship as the finest of the fine arts...While
there is a call for strong preaching there is even a greater need for uplifting worship."
Andrew W. Blackwood

This is the essence of incense… uplifting, unadulterated worship! Where we collectively stand as the temple of the Living God (1 Corinthians 3:16), and act in the office of royal priests (1 peter 2:9) we’ve been called into. Burning an incense of worship with our lifted hands hearts and voices to God, our King, the one who loves us fiercely… the I AM!

I’m so excited about incense and the life changing worship experience we’re going to have as we cast crowns, lift hands and bow our hearts in worship.
To see this thought planted in my heart become a reality has overwhelmed my heart with gratitude. I know God’s going to honor us with His presence.
I’m thankful for the beautiful people who have shown support and our High priests who’ll be leading a congregation of Priests in worship.
Nothing is as beautiful and sweet as the presence of God, I really can't describe how intense moments of worship are. Sometimes, it feels like a lovers dance, the merging of hearts with God as He rains down kisses on me. 
I want everyone who attends to get an intimate revelation of God and experience the beauty of His glory as we burn up an incense of worship for His presence.

Everyone who comes will leave with something beautiful, because I know no one leaves the presence of God the same way they come.
What beauty...

I’m sure Incense is coming to a city near you… be expectant!
I got a couple of my friends and our worship ministers for the evening to drop nuggets of their personal revelation of worship. It's interesting to hear different views about worship.

The Worship Ministers for the evening gave us personal nuggets...

Friends in ministry whispered some nuggets as well...

Saturday, June 13, 2015

On Lemons and Lemonades... The Beauty in The Ugly.

What the enemy meant for evil, God uses it for His glory, for our good. The saying when life throws you lemons, you make lemonades, depicts this bible verse to me “And we know that God causes everything to work together for the good of those who love God and are called according to his purpose for them” Romans 8:28(NLT) When the devil throws those issues at you, after you’ve winced from where it hurts and probably shed a few tears, don’t fold up and sit defeated… that’s not it! You pick the lemons and squeeze the life/juice out of it and sip on the delicious lemonade made. Honestly? I’m not crazy about lemonades; I’d pretty much pick up the lemons and make a nice tall glass of coke with it. How? I don’t know… but miracles come out of impossibilities right?

So baby, all things work together for your good. The pain is birthing a greater purpose. The loss is making room for a bigger replacement. The betrayal is revealing a clearer picture of the world to you and teaching you how to deal.

You’ll be just fine darling. The process of making the lemonade may take a teeny weeny bit of time, but you’ll be sipping on that lemonade (in my case coke), legs crossed, by the seaside, marveling at the greatness of God as you stare at the deep blueness of the vast sea and clouds (Just like in those perfect vacation pictures we see on the internet) and laughing at the bully devil as he goes to find more lemon to throw at you.

Yes child, more… he’s pretty determined, that naughty boy, he never gives up on trying to cause havoc on Gods children. “ When the devil had finished tempting Jesus, he left him until the next opportunity came” Luke 4:13(NLT) I mean he knew Jesus was the BOSS, but that didn’t stop him from trying again. And maybe we feel like he won when he was able to get Jesus killed… but see? That worked for our good, because with Jesus alive as man, much couldn’t be done, with Him dead and risen… so much good has come to the world, the Holy Spirit lives in each and everyone of us, something a human Jesus couldn’t achieve.

So even if Mr. devil gathers enough lemons and comes back, know that the fight has been fixed in your favor child. You always win because Christ has won. He basically shames the devil, by using his tool of destruction to elevate His children… classic!
satan would get the lemons, he would throw them at you, but you would come out better than before the attack, and he would go away again, but only for a season… he just keeps trying. Silly isn’t it? But all the same, you always win.
"The righteous person may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all;" Psalm 34:19(NIV)

Get creative with your lemons, make lemonades, or like me, make coke or beautiful cocktails and celebrate your victory and elevation created from the weapons he used to pull you down.

Ahhh, the beauty of our God. Is it raining lemons in your life right now? I know it hurts, but find the strength in God’s love for you and rise up, even if you’re limping, rise and start preparing your refreshing drink, for you will need it as you sit at the table God prepares for you in the presence of your enemies (your trials, your pain, the betrayals) sipping on the juice as you celebrate the goodness birthed out of it.

I love you(I really do love you, yes YOU!), and I pray for the grace to rise and live and love and laugh despite what has been thrown your way. I pray for grace to choose to push through and live, and see what the goodness of God has for you, grace to see the beauty this pain births in you.

Thursday, June 11, 2015

Transformation... All WIthin The Pages Of A Book.

Reading changed my life. That sounds dramatic right? But it’s the truth, outside salvation, reading is one of the most remarkable things that have influenced my life; it has molded me to be the lady that I am. The books I have read, bits and pieces of those precious words, the good, the bad and the ugly has taken shape and presented the world to me in a different light, and presented me to the world as a gem.

My mind has been transformed, and it’s broken through the boundaries of my surroundings from the books I have read. At a time some of my peers still marveled at bicycle wheels, I was already seeing myself flying, because my mind had already formed pictures beyond what my eyes may ever get to experience. I have lived most moments, before I physically experienced them. So while it may have been a first time for me, it was already a done deal from the pages of some book.

Our minds need books, as our bodies need clothes. Books give a good look. Not just any boos, good books that would open our minds to endless possibilities. A popular quote goes like this… “A person who won't read has no advantage over one who can't read.” Mark Twain.
There are many educated people who can pass for illiterates, because they would not read, they choose not to.

Our reading culture is declining. I live in a generation where reading is limited to a few words on twitter and the social media, anything more is labeled as boring… too much to read. Minds are locked up, minds are bland, minds are striped naked and exposed to the elements of the weather because we are too busy being tech savvy and posting pictures on instagram to take time out to read. We need to  free our minds, dress up our minds with good books.
If the minds of the next generation are not captured now, they would grow into a future where books may be extinct, more of an artifact of what used to be. We need to get children reading… we need to get adults reading!

Reading4Change aims to do just that. To create a culture of reading in the lives of children who some may say are disadvantaged in the society, especially those in the rural areas by providing them with books. (I think we need to reach out to the privileged kids as well!

I was at the ABook4Change concert recently, an event organized to raise awareness and get support for these kids. The brain behind this initiative Mr. Owoicho Apochi Nelson is undeniably passionate about seeing the lives of children transformed. Books/funds raised at the event were donated to the Adoka library and resource center, which is currently being renovated by the organization. More events are going to be held, and I believe there's going to be a ripple effect for a nationwide campaign to #readforchange
Me outside my comfort zone...
It got me thinking, this project may be geared towards kids in the rural areas and I could act uninterested, like it’s got nothing to do with me. But it’s for my kids as much as it is for them. Because my children would get to interact with these kids. It’s a future where their paths would collide, and if there are no bright minds to interact with, then their knowledge is lost on them and the bad rubs off on them. It warms my heart to think that there’s a life being changed by this project… books have done a lot for me, as I’m sure some little child is rising up from the ashes of a naked mind to see life and the world beyond their background, to see colors of the possibility of how beautiful their life can be… to press towards the reality of the pictures painted in their minds through these books.
Mr. Owochio Apochi Nelson of the Read4Change Campaign Initiative
Someday, one day, my daughter would sit in an office with a child whose life was transformed from an initiative like this, and together they would partner to change the world. There’s a lot of possibilities to look forward to with this. It was George Martin who said A reader lives a thousand lives before he dies. The man who never reads only one. I have lived a thousand lives through books, I’m glad some child out there would have the opportunity to live more than one life because someone somewhere responded to his hearts cry to be a hand of help.
Prof. Mrs Amuta, Dean of Postgraduate School, University of Agriculture Makurdi shared her views on books... Was refreshing to know I had same views as her.

If you want to be a part of this project… contact a Reading4Change on their facebook page.

Just a few more pictures from the event....
Mr. Paul Amuta

Adakole William


Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Downgrades, Setbacks and Upgrades...

On my flight from London a couple of years ago, I met a reverend sister I had seen my mum speak with a couple of times. She has a little trouble with one of her legs and has to use a cane to aid her. I had hustled to make sure I got one of the exit seats. I prayed for an upgrade, but just incase it didn’t turn out the way I pictured; I would be content on the flight with the extra legroom. She sat next to me and we got talking, relaxed, legs stretched out.

Just after the flight took off, one of the airhostesses approached us for an exchange of seats. Some Nigerian women with babies were having issues and they needed to move one of us, or indirectly, the reverend sister, so the lady with the baby could sit there. My Spirit tugged at me… it said “speak up, you know she’s got a bad leg; she needs the legroom more than you do, even as much as you need it. Just get up. Volunteer to move”
But I argued with myself, “I’m not about to get displaced, I struggled for this comfort, I need this next best thing to bliss, I’ll just chill right here.” If sweet sister objected, I would have willingly stood up… (Well that’s what I tell myself.)

And so the kind hearted rev. sister got up without any hassle, asked for her cane from the overhead locker, and walked behind to her new seat. My heart wasn’t at peace, I felt bad, like it should have been me. The women refused to be relocated, which kind of pissed off the airhostess. The seat beside me was now left vacant and I assumed they’d bring my seatmate back. About ten minutes later, I saw the reverend sister walk past me, beyond the curtain, she turned to smile at me sweetly and explained, “they said they’re taking me up front.” In my mind I gasped, that should have been me… silly me for disobeying the spirit. For being nice, they were rewarding her, and I thought, there goes the upgrade I prayed for, that move to the back if I took it would have been my answered prayer for an upgrade.

When we arrived Nigeria, I reunited with my former seatmate. “Oh, they took me all the way upfront, they said for inconveniencing me.” She explained to me, I double gasped in my mind; it was a first class upgrade, not even a business class… And I missed out on all that goodness, all because I was holding on to my little legroom and I refused to listen to the voice of my spirit to step up.

I prayed for an upgrade, but I didn’t see my answered prayer because it came in form of a demotion.
Sometimes we pray for some things, and when God answers, it seems like He’s taking us ten steps back, but in truth, He’s shot us forward. To shoot a sling, you have to draw back to the desired extent before releasing. You dig? You pull back, to shoot forward. (If you don’t understand, you need to go back to your childhood and shoot a catapult)

Maybe you’ve asked God for something, you’ve prayed about something and it feels like He’s taking you backwards instead of towards your answer… don’t loose hope. Just like that reverend sister must have thought she was taken back to discomfort, it wasn’t long before she was taken way beyond the little legroom she was asked to give up.

Remember the epileptic boy in the bible? It seemed like he got worse before he got better… “When Jesus saw that the people came running together, He rebuked the unclean spirit, saying to it: “Deaf and dumb spirit, I command you, come out of him and enter him no more!” Then the spirit cried out, convulsed him greatly, and came out of him. And he became as one dead, so that many said, “He is dead.” But Jesus took him by the hand and lifted him up, and he arose. Mark 9:25-27(KJV)
Jesus rebuked the demon, and it appeared to get worse… the demon screamed and thrashed about, gave more discomfort to the boy’s body and left, and the boy looked dead. You see when Jesus steps in, everything is made right, but false evidence begins to appear real to shake your faith, and make you speak words of doubt to counter the words of life spoken (Remember, the power of the tongue). It may appear dead even after you’ve prayed over a situation, but don’t let FEAR (false evidence appearing real) take hold of you. Trust, knowing that it’s fine, even when it still appears as dead, because Jesus is involved (Oluwa is involved).

When it feels like your prayer isn’t answered, thank God all the same. Isn’t it clearer now why we should thank God in all situations? Because our setback is a setup for unprecedented promotion (I’ve always hated using that cliché set back for set up term, but it’s so apt right now)

“Favor may lead you into a pit, but only because that pit is a pathway to your palace. Paul Adefarasin.

Monday, May 18, 2015

Stirring of The Waters...

Sometimes, events of our lives flow as peaceful as a stream. Things are so perfect, (either our marriage, relationships, careers, finances etc.) gliding through life easy and free until suddenly there’s a slight disruption, or more than a slight one… The stirring of the waters by certain events that happen, and everything seems to be thrown off course. There are bubbles, ripples, waves, everything far from the tranquility you enjoyed. It’s in those moments we start to panic, and we start to freak out. A stirring indicates disruption.

But something gets me in the story of the pool of Bethesda “For an angel of the Lord went down at appointed seasons into the pool and moved and stirred up the water; whoever then first, after the stirring up of the water, stepped in was cured of whatever disease with which he was afflicted.” John 5:4(amp)
Whenever the water was stirred, that was when the miracle was released. Huh!!! The peaceful pool didn’t have the miracle; it was the disrupted flow that offered them something.

Isn’t that great? If you feel like the steady stream like flow of your life is being disrupted, even in all the confusion it brings, #chillBabychill. For in the stirring is a miracle. It’s been stirred for change, for a greater purpose, to lift up and not to disrupt your otherwise perfect life. We get too comfortable in certain situations that it takes a stirring to give us the change for the better we need. I’m not saying miracles and better are only birthed through conflict… I’m saying, if there’s an affliction right now, there’s trouble that’s got you up all night, there’s a relationship that’s hit the rocks or a job that’s turbulent, even in all the pain and confusion, trust in your God, that you’re coming out better, changed and on to the next level.

My life has been a steady peaceful stream, but it’s recently felt like it’s been stirred up. I’m hovering between being depressed, and holding my head up high knowing God’s got me. One of my comfort food in this moment is knowing and believing that there is a blessing in the stirring, and I just can’t wait for what’s coming out of this. I’m so expectant even in this disruption.

Have a blessed week people. Remember, if it’s been stirred, then it’s stirred for a breakthrough.

Be utterly amazed, He's doing something in/through your life that would be too good to be true when it comes to pass. This little hitch that makes you question is a bend, definitely not an end. Keep trusting!

Wednesday, May 13, 2015

Mangoes, Rainbows and Circumcisions...

I wrote a post on mangoes some years ago and as I lay in bed one morning recently, I heard the thudding sound of mangoes dropping outside my bedroom window and I knew I had to do another post as it resounded deep in my heart. Every morning, the mangoes drop and we have buckets filled to the brim with juicy tasty ripe mangoes. It’s in season; it’s season to bear fruits and how effortless it is to enjoy the fruits of this tree. After the mango tree has produced its fruit in season, it goes through a process that prepares it for the next season of fruitfulness.

God works in us in times and seasons as well. In the fruitful season, where everything is a walk in the park, He is God and grace is at work as much as grace is at work in the season where we feel empty, like nothing is going right.
After you have served your purpose effortlessly, you enter a season where you have to get nourished again. Where you are processed and prepared for another season of effortless fruitfulness, to be an endless blessing to those around you.
Your soul is being rejuvenated and tilled as it goes through a season to prepare it for another season of fruitfulness.(Romans 5:3-5)

Joyce Meyer taught on rainbows and the circumcisions. And from that teaching, I have aptly named these seasons rainbow season and circumcision season. The rainbow seasons are where everything is great, and the circumcision is where you go through the process to prepare you for that greatness. The trials that bring you out stronger and deeply rooted in your faith, with lessons for others who need it. When the rain stops, the mango tree is still connected to its source, still deeply rooted and planted, and a process is taking place within it. We don’t see what happens, but suddenly we begin to see a bud of a green new fruit, that eventually turns out to be the sweet succulent fruit we enjoy.
As long as you’re deeply rooted and connected to your source, Jesus, you’re all right, even when things don’t seem to be working out well. Christ is enough…. His grace abounds in moments where we see the physical results and in moments when we don’t see it. Grace works in all seasons. I saw this on T.D Jakes instagram page and it aptly captures what I’m trying to say here…

The presence of PAIN does not mean the absence of GRACE. God gives us Grace to get through what we’re going through. But Grace doesn’t stop you from bleeding, it stops you from dying. Gods grace is sufficient. (2 cor 12:9) T.D Jakes

Even when you go through the fire, God calls you blessed, He doesn’t see you as disadvantaged! It’s beautiful how in the beatitudes, everyone who goes through the afflictions and seemingly disadvantaged positions mentioned is referred to as blessed, and what great rewards are attached to them… they all have a promise of such great light at the end of the tunnel. Blessed are the poor in spirit, blessed are the that mourn, blessed are the meek, blessed are they which hunger and thirst after righteousness, blessed are the merciful, blessed are the pure in heart, blessed are the peacemakers, blessed are they which are persecuted for righteousness sake…(Matthew 5:3-12)
Even when you go through trials, God calls you blessed, and what fruitfulness awaits you in the end of that season.

I feel dry and empty… I barely have the will to write or do anything. I just had my high moment, I published a book, and sweet, juicy, succulent mangos dropped with little or no effort, a physical evidence of a grace downpour, a rainbow season. And now I feel dry and empty, a little unfruitful, but in this moment, my soul is being rejuvenated, my spirit is getting refreshed, endurance is built. I attended a great conference; I am being processed in the word of God and wonderful messages I’ve come across, I am getting ready from the nourishing of my soul for another season of beauty and rainbows. So even in this circumcision season, I see grace at work in abundance. This is where we find the peace God promises, peace not like the world gives… peace even when you feel like there should be more.

Like the mango tree, stay put and connected to your source, He’ll never let you down, His grace abounds and you’ll be just fine because you are in Him and He’s got you, no matter how the circumcision hurts, God’s got you child, and His love is carrying you through to the rainbow season, where all you’ve been refined with would be a blessing to not just you but the world. You are blessed even in this… for all seasons.

Tuesday, May 5, 2015

Be Found... Colour 2015!

"‘The Whisper’ is personal. It whispers “be found” - be found in His love, be found in His wisdom and goodness, be found in His peace and purpose. Be found so that others may find hope through you."

The last couple of days have been spent soaking up in God’s presence at the Hillsong Color conference London. Words cannot begin to describe the beauty of it. Thousands of women from different countries trooped to Wembley. Everyone with a different story, a different pain, a different beauty and hope, and as different as we all were, we all had one desperate hunger… Jesus! And how well He was served to us. I received His word on a platter of gold, from women I have looked up to for so long.

When you make that statement "My life is changed forever" and you mean it with all your heart! Seating under the teachings of these great women of God Bobbie Houston, Joyce Meyer, Beth Moore, Dawnchere Wilkerson and listening to Pastor Brian Houston bare his heart out to us has been one of the most defining moments for me, and I haven't even gotten to the worship experience yet!  Brooke Fraser took us there!!!
Sometimes during worship, I would open my eyes and be overwhelmed by the hands lifted up in worship, lost in the Father's love and surrendered to His will and goodness.

My greatest desire is to know more of God; I thirst and hunger for more of Him, and each new experience shows Him in a greater dimension... What more can I ask for, when I find the answer to every question, every challenge, every joy and pain in His love. In getting lost in His love, I found myself and it gets more beautiful each day.

I'm sharing a few of the pictures from the Colour blog and from my camera...

A little flourish wall selfie.. We are colors of the worlds! Day 1

I got to do colour with my friend Joy! Day 2

Day 3

Brooke Fraser and Bobbie Houston... Lifting the name of Jesus

"The story of us is only going to be found as we live under declarations that are glorious and dangerous" Bobbie Houston
Different nations, different stories, woven together in one atmosphere of worship, where Christ is the center. Hands lifted up in total awe and surrender.

"Never loose gratitude for the littlest things... Live gratefully, live prayerfully, live with integrity" Brian Houston
-->  "Everybody gets something and everybody doesn't get something" Joyce Meyer
Dawnchere brought a dynamite to light up the house with the word... Slow Burn! The fire that precedes the dynamite is slow, steady and almost invincible, but it's effect cannot be ignored... DYNAMITE!

--> "Communicate three things; Christ Story, my story, Our story" Beth Moore

Saturday, April 18, 2015

The Imperfectly Paved Path to Perfection...

His lineage isn’t of perfection. Lots of imperfection paved the path for the coming of the Messiah. There’s a schemer, Tamar, who slept with her father in law. Jacob stole his brother’s birthright. There’s David and Bathsheba, a tale of adultery, deceit and murder. There’s a prostitute in the mix, Rahab’s story wasn’t masked, thank God the imperfections weren’t hidden in Jesus lineage, to show that we have a hope even when we feel hopeless, to show that we are useful even in our mess. There’s a perfect story of grace emerging from our imperfect selves. Thank God for grace.

You’ve messed up? You’re perfect for Jesus to use you, for Him to come to the world of someone through you.
God’s grace qualifies us to be a part of His great plans. Not what we have and haven’t done. He uses our mistakes and our deceit for His glory… How bad can you go? How bad have you been? Wipe the tears, dust the dirt and enough with putting yourself down in a gully of self condemnation… there’s such a glorious hope and future for you, there’s such greatness that can change the world waiting to be birthed through you. Remember, there is therefore now condemnation… He doesn’t condemn you; He loves you and is ever willing to use you, stay with Him!
For God so greatly loved and dearly prized the world that He [even] gave up His only begotten (unique) Son, so that whoever believes in (trusts in, clings to, relies on) Him shall not perish (come to destruction, be lost) but have eternal (everlasting) life.
For God did not send the Son into the world in order to judge (to reject, to condemn, to pass sentence on) the world, but that the world might find salvation and be made safe and sound through Him
John 3:16-17(AMP)

Monday, April 13, 2015

On Kissing and Telling... The Joy In Telling!

15:03:15 I had a perfect evening. It didn’t matter anymore, the fact that I had to fight back tears and a ton of anger and feelings of betrayal from someone I held dear hours before. It didn’t matter, because once I got into my dress, I felt like a princess, and I knew the world was mine to conquer. I held back tears at different times when I heard people speak. I saw the pride in the eyes of my loved ones, and the excitement in the eyes of my friends.

I lost a lot of weight recently and people have given me their opinions on my weight loss. As good as I felt with my body, I began to worry and get a little self-conscious. But on this day, I owned my body… Away from their opinions and away from the self-consciousness. This day was me, stepping into the path of royalty that has been set before me from the beginning of time in my Style by Cecil and Virgos lounge dresses.
I really can’t explain the feeling. But have you ever felt so free? Like you could just spin and dance and fly away from all the lightness in you? I felt that way. I danced like I had never danced before… in public. I felt drunk and I was aptly so in my spirit.

People wondered why I would have my launch in Makurdi, why not Lagos? But I told myself, why not Makurdi? I grew up there. My family is there and for now, why deny your roots because it doesn't look as glamorous as where you want to be? I'm glad in the end I proved them wrong. You can have a wonderful occasion, wherever you are, and you can thrive even in a seemingly dry land. Looking forward to the Kiss and Tell Lagos event though!

15:03:15 was one of the happiest days of my life. I don't feel like I just launched a book, I feel like I launched out. God has been so good. It felt good to be celebrated! What wows me is this truth I know within, that I haven't seen anything yet... the path of the righteous shines brighter and brighter. That day may have been bright for me, but it's so dim compared to what's coming.
Enjoy the pictures… I had to cut down on the number of pictures to post, so i just showed me off with the pictures I chose :) :(

My sister makes the best cakes!!!

Mr. William Anyebe did an awesome job reviewing my book. I got schooled on my work.

Adakole William and I Singing the Kiss and Tell theme song, I bet y'all didn't know I could sing... I can't!

Dr. King and Lady Patience Omudu, Senior Pastors, Shelter Of Glory Makurdi.

And a not to clear video of the performance of the Kiss and Tell song

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