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Monday, February 8, 2010

Broken and beautiful: The lonely path…….

The lonely path
(i know i did a nasty job taking this picture....a thousand apologies to photographers worldwide)

She walks down the lonely path,
No one to wipe the tears in her heart,
No one to walk along with her,
And soothe the fears that plague her…
She looks at life through her broken heart,
Making everything grey and dark,
Alone, with her life changed forever,
Starting life anew on nothing, but a prayer….
Life is never ending, and so she walks on,
Hoping for a better tomorrow, she walks into the dawn.
Someday, maybe this path will not be lonely for her again,
But she'll never forget this lonely walk and this pain.


I love this line "Starting life anew on nothing, but a prayer…."
I don’t consider myself so lonely anymore… I don’t consider myself stuck in the dark and scary planet of my mind anymore. I’m a big girl now, I’ve matured spiritually, physically and emotionally. I’ve found God and that’s put me in a place of rest beyond what any human could ever offer.
Mayii of shutterchance gave me this picture. I saw it on his blog two years ago and fell in love with it and might have manipulated him to dedicate it to me:). It was a sad sort of love… but it pierced right to the depths of me, nothing explained my life better than the path and the write up that followed. I wrote the post ‘fighting the past’, to show how hard but necessary it is to overcome past failures and mistakes, I fought off all my past demons that led to my ‘na devil moments’ I got broken in pieces dealing with this past demons, but i have been broken and made beautiful by the master builder himself, i would never have become beautiful again to myself if i didn't get broken.
Gods grace has released, redeemed, and restored my ashes for beauty. I’m so beautiful from within that its on the outside, reflecting in the way i choose to live…
I may have challenges, but the beauty in me makes me happy going through it. I love easier, I smile easier, I forgive easier… I’m friendlier to those I frowned at, I’m a beautiful person inside, thus I see no reason why I shouldn’t dance like no ones watching, sing like i'm in my bathroom, dress like its my birthday, laugh like i'm the funniest person and praise God like i see him face to face… all because I've been broken and released into beauty.  I'm no longer the girl in the lonely path.
Mayii had an exhibition in December tagged 'YAADEIN: Memories of Years Gone By' at ikoyi, I could only attend for a few minutes on the opening night. Beautiful work it was, and my hopes of purchasing one was dashed when i sighted the price tags:)... yeah blame it on the recession.

After the exhibition, Mayii brought my favorite picture to me as a gift. I’m keeping it as a reminder of how far I’ve come, and how lucky I am to be out of that place of soul despair, and soul imprisonment that I dwelled in for so long. I'm obviously not where i want to be, but the beauty of it is that I'm not where i used to be.
I took down the painting in one of the living rooms and fixed this up to imagine how it’d look like in my future home... I like love.
Check the original piece out on MAYII's blog.
Thanks a lot mayii… God bless.
And to all you tortured souls out there, stop holding back, you can only get beautiful again if you've been broken.... and we all know Gods the master breaker and builder.

5 comments :

  1. This is so powerful! I'm just touched and humbled right now. Thanks for sharing.

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  2. believe me, its never that bad

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