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Saturday, February 25, 2012

Desperately desperate...


“Some loves are like that. Your heart starts to feel like an overcrowded lifeboat. You throw your pride out to keep it afloat, and your self-respect and your independence. After a while, you start throwing people out. Your friends, everyone you used to know. And it’s still not enough. The life boat is still sinking and you know it’s going to take you down with it” excerpt from the book shantaram. 

I'm currently reading the book 'Shantaram' and the excerpt above gave me a picture of how deadly it is to be desperate for love. There’s something tragically comical about desperation. It’s like sitting in a sauna for hours, every sense of reason is steamed out of you and you’re a hot mess of foolishness in the end. Drained of every common sense.

It’s a good feeling to want something, but when we get desperate, we’re a time bomb waiting to explode. Our judgment becomes flawed, bad begins to look like all things great, bright and beautiful… We're so blinded by the sting in our feet to move forward that we fail to notice how much we stink, not even when we gag from our own stench.
A woman desperate for love looses herself in the sea of flawed illusions, just like the quote from the book says, she keeps holding on even as she begins to feel the life boat sinking with her, because false hope is better than waiting, and racing against the psychological clock of time beats not knowing. You can’t always trust your judgment when you’ve been on the bottommost side of down for so long.

 Desperate for a husband/wife, you find yourself married to a beast. Desperate for bread, and you find yourself chewing on stone. Being desperate takes you to a boutique of optical illusion, where dresses of your desires are displayed on mannequins of lies.

But thank God for God. He knows just how desperate we can be, thus he opens his arms to invite us to come into his rest… “Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest” (Matthew 11:28) His rest is the only thing that saves us from the shackles of desperateness. His rest doesn't stop us from desiring things, but it gives us a confident assurance that it is ours in his time, which is the right time.

In good time, all things we hope for will come to pass as long as we hold on to our source. We've been such slaves to our desperate desires for so long. It's time to let go of the craziness of being desperate and grab at God's rest.

14 comments :

  1. TIMELY!!! this has helped my weariness from desperation. God bless u

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    1. God bless you too. May his rest embrace you as you wait on him.

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  2. What a nice well directed post on desperation. love your way of describing anything.

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  3. Wow, wow, wow. When a person throws all caution to the wind because of desperation, the wind causes the waves to rise and sink the boat. There's just something about waiting on God...those who wait on God mount on wings as eagles, which will ultimately soar higher than the wind. Excellent article. Excellent writing. Excellent Writer. Point driven home.

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    1. Thank you so much.
      I love the way you use the winds and the waves to describe it. Only grace can usher us into that place of rest while we wait...

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  4. Your posts have a way of elevating me....this came at the right time and I'm glad to have read it.
    In God I will find my rest. I find my self getting desperate for certain things ( not marriage as I am married n not money as my husband is well to do) .....things that money can not buy.
    I'll hold on to God.

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    1. I'm glad this spoke to you. I pray as you hold on to him, he'll kiss you with his peace and satisfy your every desire.

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  5. It appears as if my initial comment was eaten. Just agreeing with the spirit of the post - desperation is never the answer. From a human being perspective it's somewhat frightening, if you ask me.

    Great post.

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  6. Being desperate never helps, I love how you broke it down.

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  7. Desperation...sigh, it doesn't help when you have families making your life a living hell also. Life is never fair.

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  8. Most often we forget that something which can be precious to us could be the same to others as well. In desperate peoples' mind the only thing that runs by hook or by crook is that " I have to achieve that particular thing ". This kind of behavior in people , often is misleading and it can also bring forward a lot of differences.I clearly agree with everything you have written and honestly there is need to ponder.Keep it coming.Peace !

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  9. yes you are rite, .those who wait on God mount on wings as eagles, which will ultimately soar higher than the wind...replica handbags

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  10. Oooh, I love this! It's kinda sad that our society does nothing for women's confidence and self esteem cos it's like no matter what you've achieved in life you don't exactly count as anything without a husband and that's why alot of girls are desperate. but that's also where the security, love and peace of mind from God comes in. With faith in God comes the peace that calms the raging storms.

    The world is really a global village o lol, we're following each other on twitter but somehow i randomly found your blog out here. I love it!

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