who am i?

"I write for the unlearned about things in which I am unlearned myself." - CS Lewis, Reflections on the Psalms

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

The emancipation of me!!!!

i've been able to identify who i am, thus my emerging into freedom, thus i wrote this about my emancipation. yeah yeah, i always have one self discovery theme or the other lurking about. i'm getting there, at least this is yet another step.

Its time to bring forth me,
To release the real substance of me from this cell of uncertainty
My emancipation is the blossoming of my soul
that is birthed from my acceptance of things that I can’t control
And my willingness to understand all things that make me better
It is my quest to be true to this self of mine
My breaking away from the rusty clutter of the artificiality of today’s woman


Emancipation of me into liberty and equality with the self I harbor within
From the judgment I’ve placed on me
As I scrutinized all the wrongs in me
Rather than dwell on the fabulousness of me
It is my climb down the ladder of self-doubt
Which I painfully climbed to peep into my neighbors yard and lust over her superficiality
All the while failing to see what the essence of me is really about.


Emancipation from my delusion of fairytales
From thoughts that a kiss is really all it takes
To make a frog choke on its croak and turn into a prince
To the reality that if I don’t work towards getting a dress and a coach for the ball
I’ll definitely be left home alone drowning in sorrows at the painful realization that fairy godmothers and their wands belong to tales


My emancipation from the confines of such complex terms of pain with names like HMS, from seeing it as a hindrance rather than a possible gateway
From the weakness and giving in to that plague of breathlessness that fights to take me away from myself,
From the constant need to inhale the puff of that colorless gas that as formless as it be, brings my life back to shape,
It is my breaking free from constant need to be pricked by needles in veins that are most elusive and restored to self as the ugly liquids are infused into me,


My emancipation from the doubts that the greater being who exist on high has maybe forgotten me,
To my embracing his every word spoken ages ago, but somehow transported to the present and whispered into my ears,
My emancipation from the constant betrayal of self
From the judas of my head that always tries to sell out the Christ of my heart
My letting go of fear
And embracing the idea of falling in love

I emancipate myself from the desperateness of emancipation
I free myself from me
Today I pull the plug
And I become a woman of substance
An emancipated woman.

19 comments :

  1. TBR hopes you get emancipated for real...A whole lotta healing. You need it.

    All the best for your healing o!

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  2. Wow! I am glad for you. It sounds like you are so free. Good for you dear.

    Beautiful piece by the way...

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  3. "To my embracing his every word spoken ages ago, but somehow transported to the present and whispered into my ears."

    Glad you have found yourself. The way you expressed the new you is so beautiful.

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  4. WOW!

    this is deep FQ, i'm sooo liking this emancipated u.

    "From the Judas of my head that always tries to sell out the Christ of my heart"

    word!

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  5. this is so nice........
    " Emancipation from my delusion of fairytales
    From thoughts that a kiss is really all it takes............ "
    wow, thats some truth!

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  6. The queen is stepping out of the fantasy life...

    hmmm I like, I really like...

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  7. thanks people, i really hope i'm as confident as my words, i hope i'm able to remain free of every baggage and all.

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  8. Very well written. We are what we agree to be not what life says we are

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  9. too good! too true! i need this in my life right now..gonna read over and over again until i get in the state of mind you were in when you wrote this :P

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  10. ...to the 'woman of substance'.

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  11. amen...preach it sista!me sef i emanicipate myself from all my negative thots!

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    Thank you

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