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Monday, November 23, 2009

Fighting the past...

"...And no, I ain't perfect - nobody walkin this earth's surface is..." Jay Z, Bonnie n Clyde
now that’s the absolute true. we've all made some major mistakes in life. but hey thats the beauty of God,he gives the grace to rise up above our mistakes.
I’ve made a lot of mistakes in my life, things that somehow come back to haunt me. You know when you think you’ve scaled through your past all jolly and dandy, it somehow comes right back to bite you in the backside. No matter where we run to or how far we move, the distance of oceans and mountains, changing of addresses and names doesn’t keep the past away, it’s the past and its part of us one way or the other it finds us in the little hole we bury ourselves in cos its just got to have a taste of that butt of ours and Like misery the past loves company, and so its just going to haunt you down so you can keep him occupied, talk about those good ol’ days you’re running from.….
So the sooner we stop feeling sorry for ourselves and making excuses for our actions and past mistakes and start taking responsibilities the better it’d be for us,. By accepting the wrong and learning from it, we’re able to deprive our past the right to bite us in the backside. All you’ve got to do is take it by the collar, shove it against the wall ,like in the movies, but make sure you’re pumped up with steroids or else it’d just shove right back at ya(note steroids here is literal, more like prayers) 
Anyways you take it by the collar and confront every single bit of  it. No holds barred(well that’s pretty tough) and you might break down in tears even though you’re feeling like a toughie in a bar fight, but the tears makes you so human and makes it feel so right. After the confrontation(oh my, I love this part) you shove it on the floor, dust your hands, and like the movies, adjust your collar and strut away(or add a twist to it, adjust your lipstick and catwalk away)……… now that part I like. Purrrfect. Bye bye past, bye bye secrets. Hello future………
My past survived a major titanic like sink and found me, there I was stooping to pick up some bits and pieces of my porcelain life and just like that I felt the pain in my backside. And well..i think I re-enacted the bar fight scene real good and just before i adjusted my lipstick, I stooped and bite it back in the butt for good measure, not a nice taste but pay back’s a bitch innit, I just couldn’t leave it without it knowing what it feels like to bite a lady in the butt.…fight clubs got nothing on me...nada. i'm bad!!!!!!

6 comments :

  1. I like how you sprinkled the write-up with the bite in the backside quip. I agree that though we have to leave the past behind to move ahead, we do need to come too grips with it and accept it before letting go. Unless as you say, it will come back and ...

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  2. yup, better to take responsibility and move on.

    Nice how you wrote about picking up the porcelain pieces. great, vivid, imagery.

    Hope all is well Madam I'm bad. =0

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  3. hahhahahaaa...i like how u evaded the real gist!!
    oya oya spill it

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  4. the past.... sometimes the things we leave behind are as important as the things we leave them for.. i think

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  5. lol tin tin...did u come back to blogvlle for amebo?

    @bagucci...word. i think once we deal with what we're running from we find it easier to deal with the future.

    @solomonsydelle...i'm good. thanks. hope our babies are good too.

    @mynewhite...lol, it certainly will come back and......

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  6. lol tin tin...did u come back to blogvlle for amebo?

    @bagucci...word. i think once we deal with what we're running from we find it easier to deal with the future.

    @solomonsydelle...i'm good. thanks. hope our babies are good too.

    @mynewhite...lol, it certainly will come back and......

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