Sometimes I feel overestimated.
I get ridiculous calls with ridiculous job offers and I blank out. A small part of the reason I don't jump at this offers is because I'm not so eager to jump into the 9-5 bandwagon anymore. But the main reason I don't jump at them is because I get scared. I think maybe I’m not qualified enough... heck, I know I’m not qualified enough on paper for these positions.
I may not be that qualified with my university degree, but I’ve learnt most of the things I know on the job... I have gone for meetings with 'heavy weights' completely clueless but learning on the spot... the little things I pick up I’m able to sound off, giving me a good look. And i guess this good look sends a (wrong?) signal.
Since coming home in January, I've been saddled with a position that is almost overwhelming. I accepted this offer because i had too. I've concluded that if they didn't believe in me, i wouldn't have been given the chance.
I've come to realize that while I think I have been overestimated, these people see in me what I fail to see in myself, whatever it is that they see. They believe in me, more than I believe in myself. If I was really interested in these jobs that i said nayy to, I would have missed out on a lot of opportunities because I short changed myself.
So I have been underestimating myself and what I am capable of after all.
And just like I treat those calls when they come in, we ignore God's call when it comes.
We underestimate ourselves in God's eyes.
We fail to look at ourselves the way he sees us. We underestimate the value he has placed on us. (He loved us enough to trade Jesus for us) We fail to realize just how much he loves us. We underestimate the length, breath and width of his love and how much he wants to bless us.
Thus we fail to realize the power we have in him.
Because we see ourselves with the eyes of condemnation, we limit ourselves from the goodness we are promised in him.
We stand aside feeling small, and watch others enjoy his grace and love and think how blessed they are, and how holy they are, and how much God must love them because they go about saying "bless you sister" and updating their facebook status with a scripture or two.
We need to know God loves us as much as he loves the next person. The sooner we stop underestimating ourselves and start seeing ourselves through God's eyes, the sooner we choose to serve him and bask in his presence. I think it's easier to surrender to God's will when we see ourselves as precious in his eyes.
The promises in the bible are for you as much as they are for the next person. It all bores down to you stepping up to receive them. 1 John 4:19 says "We love him, because he first loved us." When we understand just how much he loves us regardless of what we've done or how hopeless we seem, we will love him endlessly, and as the word says "No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him." 1 Corinthians 2:9 No one can even begin to fathom the blessings he has for us when we love him i.e. when we understand his love for us and respond to it.
"Yet amid all these things we are more than conquerors and gain a surpassing victory through Him Who loved us. For I am persuaded beyond doubt (am sure) that neither death nor life, nor angels nor principalities, nor things impending and threatening nor things to come, nor powers, Nor height nor depth, nor anything else in all creation will be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord". Romans 8:37-39
Nothing can separate us from God's love... but our perception of self can deprive us of basking in this love.
Start seeing yourself through the eyes of Jesus, it's time to let go of the insecurities of our struggles with our faith, and hold on to his love.... the love that releases grace and washes us clean of every sin, the love that strengthens us in our weakness and leads us in the path that we should go. The love that releases every spiritual blessing in the heavenly place.
"Give thanks to the God of heaven, for his steadfast love endures forever" Psalm 136:26
***HAPPY 70TH BIRTHDAY to Pastor E.A Adeboye.... his ministry has been such a blessing to me. May Gods grace continue to abound i him.