The power of God shines forth in our ability to live and laugh after going through so much pain... How he comforts us and gives us the grace to move, even when we want to stay at that place of grief and sulk and never come out to see the sun smile again, because somehow we see it's smile as a smirk, rubbing it's brightness in our face, when it knows just how gloomy our hearts are.
But then God gives us memories to soothe us on bad days like this... just like a child is given a lollipop to make up for the doctors visit. I miss my daddy some days, some days i don't. Some days i cry, some days i shrug it off... other days I'm angry, and sometimes i laugh.
And then i see a picture... ahhh, thank God for memories.
Where would we be without them? The sweetness of a thought, it spreads through the heart and grabs at it, filling it with joy even as pain tries to take over, asking you why you never cherished those moments when you had them.
Thank God for the lens of the mind that captures the details... in that holiday, in that normal day where home was just home, everyone was still a child. Father, mother and children living life, not a thought of how there would be no daddy one day, and the little girl wouldn't be so little anymore, and there would be grandchildren and bigger dreams brought to life. They were just casual images in the mind, but now they are treasures, the ones you pull out when you need a smile, a laugh, a reason to be thankful for what you've been through.
I am thankful for my family. Life has gone on. Who but God? His spirit is truly the comforter... i can testify to that. I lost a father, but gained a mighty warrior, the King of Kings and the Lord of Lords as my Father. A father who never takes afternoon naps... He never sleeps or slumbers. I am blessed beyond measure.
I am happy, i am not held down by grief, i am strong. I am now an adult, a woman of substance, sipping from the keg of glory of the One who has stepped in to be a father to the fatherless... I am no more daddy's star baby, I am now a Star of the maker of the universe, the designer of the milky way... Shinning brighter and brighter, reflecting the goodness and love of my heavenly father as the days go by.